To whom it may concern...

Y'know, I still can't figure out if it was me or him who caused the breakup.

I can't seem to make any sense out of this whole ordeal anymore. I really can't. I'm too open minded and living in the now. While he's old fashioned and always 'planning for the future'. I can't get things to mesh properly and it's really aggravating and depressing because she was really so happy with him. And I was happy to see her happy. But some people just can't accept thing. Some people have to be selfish and greedy and god forbid if she wants to feel the same way about someone else. God forbid if you can't open up a little. You said you wanted her to be happy. You said.

She loves you, and she loves me. And that's never going to change. She doesn't want to think about the future, she wants to think about now and about what makes her happy now. The future isn't going to do a damned thing for anyone if we drop dead tomorrow.

I don't hate you. This is just me venting. I need to get this out because this thing is weighing on me as much as it's weighing on either of you. I know you think I shouldn't even be involved in it, but I am. I'm the reason everything happened. I don't regret that. I don't necessarily feel bad about that, but I am involved.

I just wish you could allow yourself to take a risk.

Incoherant.

I'm sore and tired, yet still awake. How about that. Debating going to work tomorrow or not. I dunno.

All I've been doing is working and I need to do commissions, but work is chasing my creativity away and augh.

I want alochol.

( Survey thing from numerous people... )