I should've known you'd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do...

[obliviousally_lj]

Summery doodle of Freckles.

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I'm getting a little tired of this give and take-back bullshit I've been dealing with over the last year and a half. Vague, yes, I know.

I'm also very, very tired of everyone, strangers even, getting comfort from the person I'm supposed to get comfort from. I can't remember the last time I got a hug or an 'it'll be okay' when I was upser or crying.

I mean, I really don't ask for much. Fuck, I barely ask for anything. But sometimes I just want a goddamn hug.

I guess I'll just have to chalk it up to not being good enough for anything.

Now I'm going to go take a bath and baaawwww.

Comments

[camstone.livejournal.com]

First, you're a heck (H-E-double toothpicks) of an artist.

Second, you have more heart and feelings than the average person. Sometime that will bring heartache. I've been a widower (albeit remarried) for five years now. Know what it's like to be in so in love with someone that you can feel it inside... and then know you can't even expect a hug ever again that feels that way?

Not that it's any real solace, I'm just saying I really know how you can feel that way. It's not good.

I think my advice is to not think that you're not good enough for anything or anyone... it's that they really (perhaps) aren't good enough for you when you need it. That's not a totally miserable thing either, it just means you need to think about it differently than you are now. Think about the good things you do have. Others don't. And realize that things can and will get better. When you have the lonelies... get out and change your view on the world.

They'll be there for you... just not perhaps when you expect them to be.

[hellebore.livejournal.com]

You give good advice!

[jenova-silver.livejournal.com]

Mmmm... Summery pic helps when winter freezes everything outside.