Too much for hotel rooms, don't make me say it, sleeping pills don't make me...

[obliviousally_lj]

Y'see, the thing I've discovered about western Washington's weather and temperatures is that it always feels ten degrees colder than what it actually is.

It's 37F here. It feels like 20-something.

I spent the morning curled in the fetal position, under two fleece blankets and I was still shivering. But I'm not allowed to turn the heat up. At all. Which means both me and my animals (mostly the nude ones) freeze.

I'm cold and I'm fucking miserable.

I want to cry.

My babies have no food. All the money I'm waiting on is just NOT SHOWING UP. My mom sent me money on SATURDAY. It's STILL not here. I'm waiting on auction payments. Still not here. I'm waiting on money from Paypal to my bank. Still not here.

My period decided it'd be a great idea to stick around. Likely because of the stress. All I want to do is sleep until I have to go to work every day.

You could cut the tension in the apartment with a fucking knife.

There is no rebuilding...whatever this was. There is forced civility, at best, towards each other.

Three weeks can't go by fast enough.



I want to go home.

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[justplainbob.livejournal.com]

Apparently there has been some miscommunication. I said I would prefer it if the heat was kept down, with allowances made for the fact that there needs to be some minimum heat setting to allow for the given range of preferred comfort zones. So if you feel inclined to turn the heat up, then turn the heat up. I prefer it to be about 55. I can handle it in the mid-60's. I can afford for it to be cranked to 80 all the time, but I'd rather not spend the extra money, given that this is a ground-floor apartment with relatively poor insulation.

Regarding tension, am I not noticing something? I suppose this is just me being oblivious to the subtle currents drifting around me again, since as far as I can tell, there's nothing particularly abnormal about things going on right now.

Oh, yeah. Regarding why it feels cooler, blame the humidity. The moisture in the air takes an extra ten or fifteen degrees off during the rainy and damp seasons.

[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

See, yesterday you were quite pissy about the heat thing. The way you commented implied you'd rather not have the heat on at all. And that's what I took it as.

And, yeah, it's you being oblivious. Both me and TJ are extremely stressed. But that's because we're in a living situation that isn't ideal any more (meaning, everyone's some form of pissed at each other). And, while it may not seem like anything's amiss to you, it is to us.

I'd rather have the whole household on civil and loose speaking terms. But with the way you and TJ throw barbs at each other, I just hope you two go without talking until we leave.

[justplainbob.livejournal.com]

I was? Hrm. While I would rather have the heat off and just put on a sweatshirt, I don't think I was being particularly irritated about it, no more so than I generally am when I have to deal with something similarly unpleasant, such as taking out the trash or doing my taxes. But I shall file that one under differences of definition, as mine is apparently significantly different.

Regarding obliviousness, perhaps I'm just not noticing what you are trying to say. I don't see there being any particular problem right now, nor any specific tension. Then again, in every other roommate situation I've been in, the 'problem,' whatever it is, would have long since been brought up, argued over and resolved. Ah, I think I see the problem. You don't drink beer. We always sealed our solutions with a six-pack. That's what's been going wrong. You need to learn to drink beer.

And regarding pissed off, I lack any particular feeling of irritation towards either of you. Then again, I don't internalize my anger - one what's said and done is done, that's the end of it for me. Why should I waste the effort saving my rage when I've got far better things to do with my mental runtime?

[dicentrakiss.livejournal.com]

...
Are you a complete back-birth, or did someone let you get this stupid?

[justplainbob.livejournal.com]

Pardon?