The sky was gold, it was rose...

[obliviousally_lj]

Y'know what sucks?

It's my birthday and I'm PMSing and moody. I have around $90 in Paypal that I can't justify buying anything with because I need to transfer it to my bank account and put it on my credit card because I'm so, so, so, so amazing BROKE it's not even funny. I'm still in the positives everywhere, but it's not anything worthwhile. I'm going to be stuck, holed up in the apartment until THURSDAY, when I go to work. Thankfully, I get paid that night, but I still can't do SHIT until SUNDAY at the earliest.

I'm just grumpy and pissy about the situation.

And it sucks because I DON'T WANT TO BE moody and bullshit today. I was well aware I wasn't doing anything on my birthday. I knew this days in advance because my check was shit and I knew I wouldn't have the money to go out and do anything.

And I KNOW it's PMS because all I want to do about it is cry.

Which sucks.

Now that this is out of my system, hopefully I'll feel better. Or something.

Comments

[5p1ic3.livejournal.com]

Cheer up, it's your birthday! =^^=

[centrifuge-xeno.livejournal.com]

Well.. still. Happy birthday to you ^_^

[dicentrakiss.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for you D:
I'll have a surprise for you on Thursday though <3 :D

[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

My life isn't in constant meltdown. I use my LJ to vent a lot of things. And, especially around my period, I tend to get crazy mood swings and shit. It's not that I'm depressed or anything, it's just stupid, petty things that pissy my already emotionally wracked brain up.

I vent here so I don't blow up at others. Once it's out of my system, I'm better. Or, at least, on the road to better. Recently I've been slightly more stressed with the impending move back to Ohio and the fact that my money is looking very scarce. I'm stressed about Bob. And about Bob returning from sea and the fact that everything is going to be tension and drama when he returns.

I overreact. A lot. I'm a dramatic sort and I have to make a big deal about things sometimes. My life hasn't been in 'meltdown' mode, well, in a long time. Things may crash around me, but I still manage to be a sturdy pillar of strength. Probably BECAUSE I get these things out here and not iRL.

I know exactly what's going on in my head. But when I'm venting here, and when I'm moody, that's not what I'm thinking about. When I pull myself back from the situation, I noticed I'm acting like a tard.