obliviousally_lj

I don't think I'm ever more stressed than I am around/on my period. It's not a visible stress, though, like when I vent in my journal when I'm fighting with TJ. It's internal. It's worst case sceneraios and bullshit that I have absolutely no power over. It's me fretting about things that will never happen. It's me stressing over things that could happen, but I can't bare to think about them on a regular basis. But my fucking period seems to bring all of this to the front of my brain and it just sits there. And sits there. And I can't ignore it. Well, I can ignore it at home mostly, when I have something to occupy myself with. Wethere it's chatting with TJ, or playing WoW, or just clicking mindlessly through the internet. My brain is occupied with something else and it doesn't wander off and think about things. Which is why I hate working and being alone when I'm like this. All I have is my music and my thoughts, unless there's actually someone around me that I actively talk to. And I know it's just me brain being overactive and stupid, but it doesn't change the fact that that's whay I'm thinking currently, and I'm going to react as such. This is also the reason why I've almost cried at work for no reason and generally why I'm do goddamned overemotional sometimes.

I pretty much hate it.

I don't know why I wrote this.

I should get dressed for work.

P.S. I'm not being all Valentine's Day emo. I'm being PMS emo. There's a difference. I am, however, looking forward to discount candy and stuff from work. Too bad we didn't get in any more love gators or pretty crimson flasks. :/