Stuff and RANDOM BABBLE...
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obliviousally_ljI don't know if it's the weather or the season or what, but I'm feeling like crap lately.
I'm feeling very stressed. About alot of things. I think I'm a smidge homesick. I wish I was working already. It would help keep my mind off of everything else I've been thinking of. I'm having a hard time coping with the fact that this isn't my place. I'm reminded of this often. Generally in jest, but after so many times it becomes something that really strikes me. TJ's off her meds. This is a choice she's made willingly (and I also agree with) because the withdrawl from the Paxil was so bad when she was without it. She wants to go back on Lexapro, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to afford it. We'll have to see.
I'm trying to think ahead and figure out what we're going to be doing in a year's time when this whole thing goes up. I'm still unsure what Bob's planning on doing once he's out of the Navy (there's been mention of both Oregon and Massachusetts). The Massachusetts deal is a no-go for us. It would involve living with, like, six other people in a house and that would not fly for either of us. Especially TJ. Oregon wouldn't be too bad, but I don't think I can afford the west coast on my own. Staying in Silverdale wouldn't be bad, either. But, again, the whole money issue.
I really would like to move back to Ohio. Not Warren, likely Streetsboro and the area. I want to save up and get another trailer and have me, TJ and Angie living together again. I could go on and on about what I miss about us all living together, but I don't feel like getting weepy. But I don't know if it's just me who wants this.
But really, I want a HOME. I don't want to continue moving from state to state. I can't deal with it. I want somewhere that's mine. I want somewhere TJ can call home. I want something stable. I want to have a steady job and be able to save up money to travel and buy the things I want. And it's so frustrating because it's so god damn difficult to get any sort of money saved up. I can only hope things go smoothly here and I'll be able to get a nice little nest egg going. And throw my income tax refund in with that.
I'm mostly babbling. Trying to get these thoughts outside of my head instead of in it.
I'm feeling very stressed. About alot of things. I think I'm a smidge homesick. I wish I was working already. It would help keep my mind off of everything else I've been thinking of. I'm having a hard time coping with the fact that this isn't my place. I'm reminded of this often. Generally in jest, but after so many times it becomes something that really strikes me. TJ's off her meds. This is a choice she's made willingly (and I also agree with) because the withdrawl from the Paxil was so bad when she was without it. She wants to go back on Lexapro, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to afford it. We'll have to see.
I'm trying to think ahead and figure out what we're going to be doing in a year's time when this whole thing goes up. I'm still unsure what Bob's planning on doing once he's out of the Navy (there's been mention of both Oregon and Massachusetts). The Massachusetts deal is a no-go for us. It would involve living with, like, six other people in a house and that would not fly for either of us. Especially TJ. Oregon wouldn't be too bad, but I don't think I can afford the west coast on my own. Staying in Silverdale wouldn't be bad, either. But, again, the whole money issue.
I really would like to move back to Ohio. Not Warren, likely Streetsboro and the area. I want to save up and get another trailer and have me, TJ and Angie living together again. I could go on and on about what I miss about us all living together, but I don't feel like getting weepy. But I don't know if it's just me who wants this.
But really, I want a HOME. I don't want to continue moving from state to state. I can't deal with it. I want somewhere that's mine. I want somewhere TJ can call home. I want something stable. I want to have a steady job and be able to save up money to travel and buy the things I want. And it's so frustrating because it's so god damn difficult to get any sort of money saved up. I can only hope things go smoothly here and I'll be able to get a nice little nest egg going. And throw my income tax refund in with that.
I'm mostly babbling. Trying to get these thoughts outside of my head instead of in it.
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Date: 2007-11-10 12:26 pm (UTC)