Stuff and YUP.

[obliviousally_lj]

Jis passed away some time today, apparently. I found him this evening, curled up like he was sleeping. He was older, and had myco, but we weren't expecting him to die, especially not so suddenly.

TJ quit her job today. A good thing and a bad thing, I suppose. But she's already looking for other work until Goodwill gets back with her.

I really don't know what to do or what to say anymore. It's so hard trying to be the one with all the strength for everyone else. I try and I try and I try to make everyone happy and to make sure everyone's okay and it's so hard to keep this smile on my face. I just want everything to be okay but I don't know how to do it. I tell myself I can do it, but I don't know what 'it' is. I don't know where to start and I wish I had a map, a guidebook, anything. Something to give me some insight. I just want to help, but I never get anywhere.







Sometimes other people just say it better.

Also, I really hate crying. It makes me feel weak and stupid.

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[kyhwana.livejournal.com]

Also, I really hate crying. It makes me feel weak and stupid.
So do I, but i'm male, so i'm not "supposed" to cry, but I do it sometimes anyway, because I need to get it out. :P

[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

I always feel like crap after, too. It gives me a terrible headache.

[zeeth_kyrah]

I offer you peace, and suggest that simply knowing that you seek is a step toward finding direction.

[mrpossessed.livejournal.com]

Sorry about your fuzzy little friend there; I know how you feel. My cat of 13 years passed away last year, and I was crushed.

And trust me, I understand how you feel. Some of us just give off the 'shoulder vibe'; we're just one big shoulder for people to come to with their problems, even when they aren't necessarily ready to reciprocate the action. I know I only friended you recently, but if you wanna just talk or something, feel free to toss me an AIM, huh?

Oh, and anyone who tells you that crying is weak is dead wrong. Releasing those emotions just cleanses you out emotionally so you'll be prepared to fix those problems. Trust me, I know. I used to hold back sadness and anger to try and be tough, and trust me, it doesn't work very well.

[tempisdraco.livejournal.com]

Oddly enough (or perhaps not so oddly) I know exactly what you're going through. Like mrpossessed said, some of us are 'pillars,' there for others to lean on. It's nothing bad, it's just who we are. But, who does a 'pillar' turn to when they start crumbling?

You've got friends, Ally. Anytime you see me on Yahoo, shoot me off a message. I'd be happy to be your 'pillar.'