Stuff and ALWAYS MOVE FORWARD.
Dec. 31st, 2005 12:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
obliviousally_ljWell, it's that time of year.
I don't make resolutions. Because I forget about them in a week. I try to wake up every day with some kind of goal. You can't make some huge plan for the year and expect it to happen. I don't work that way, at least. I can't plan ahead, everything falls through. So I go a little bit at a time. It's easier that way.
This year has gone by terribly fast. But that's how I like it. A million miles a minute with barely a second to catch my breath. Makes me feel alive, always on the move. I don't even remember the beginning of the year. It's like all the crap I dealt with in Warren in the first half of the year has been wiped from my memory.
The biggest thing that happened was moving. Out of Warren, out of that 'safe' little haven we had back in the Hamps. The free room and board, only having to buy our food. But still barely living, barely eating. Not having a job, struggling just to exist each day.
And now, here we are. Employed, living like actual adults. Paying our bills on time, buying things will money to spare. Only being without food when we're too lazy to go to the store, not because we simply don't have the money.
It's amazing.
I think I'd thought I'd be stuck in Warren forever. The rest of my unnatural life. I didn't like it, but I'd be damed if I was going to cry about it. I'd make the best of it, like I'd had for so many years before.
And then, the other big thing was me and TJ. If you haven't caught it yet, you're about as oblivious to the obvious as I tend to be. But that's okay.
It's something I never really expected. I knew it was there, we both did, but we never brought it to light. Always worried that that wasn't how the other felt. But it's wonderful because it hasn't really changed anything, it's brought us closer. We're more open with one another. It's nice. <3
There's alot I want to say here, but my mind isn't cooperating right.
Anyhow. Auldy's going to be here Tuesday. Also, Rob's coming over Tuesday and bringing Erin (who, apparently, has decided that she'd rather pee like a boy...we named her appropriately, at least). So it'll be quite the party. XD
Me and Angie are cleaning the cat room/soon-to-be Auldy's room. And Inaki's going to help us run some network cable when he gets here so we can all have interwebs, since Rob hooked us up with his old router. <3 We cleaned the living room last night, and I managed to set up the computer desk with another table so me and Angie can use it to draw when we're out there. <3 Hopefully we'll get to the kitchen soon, but if it's a flaming mess when you get here, Auldy, don't mind it. Four college-age kids living in one place and working all the time means nothing gets cleaned. x_x
At least it doesn't smell like it did when I tackled the dishes last. I wanted to DIE.
I should wrap this up, lots to do today. Gotta run out and get foods and stuff for the critters and then clean. x_x
I don't make resolutions. Because I forget about them in a week. I try to wake up every day with some kind of goal. You can't make some huge plan for the year and expect it to happen. I don't work that way, at least. I can't plan ahead, everything falls through. So I go a little bit at a time. It's easier that way.
This year has gone by terribly fast. But that's how I like it. A million miles a minute with barely a second to catch my breath. Makes me feel alive, always on the move. I don't even remember the beginning of the year. It's like all the crap I dealt with in Warren in the first half of the year has been wiped from my memory.
The biggest thing that happened was moving. Out of Warren, out of that 'safe' little haven we had back in the Hamps. The free room and board, only having to buy our food. But still barely living, barely eating. Not having a job, struggling just to exist each day.
And now, here we are. Employed, living like actual adults. Paying our bills on time, buying things will money to spare. Only being without food when we're too lazy to go to the store, not because we simply don't have the money.
It's amazing.
I think I'd thought I'd be stuck in Warren forever. The rest of my unnatural life. I didn't like it, but I'd be damed if I was going to cry about it. I'd make the best of it, like I'd had for so many years before.
And then, the other big thing was me and TJ. If you haven't caught it yet, you're about as oblivious to the obvious as I tend to be. But that's okay.
It's something I never really expected. I knew it was there, we both did, but we never brought it to light. Always worried that that wasn't how the other felt. But it's wonderful because it hasn't really changed anything, it's brought us closer. We're more open with one another. It's nice. <3
There's alot I want to say here, but my mind isn't cooperating right.
Anyhow. Auldy's going to be here Tuesday. Also, Rob's coming over Tuesday and bringing Erin (who, apparently, has decided that she'd rather pee like a boy...we named her appropriately, at least). So it'll be quite the party. XD
Me and Angie are cleaning the cat room/soon-to-be Auldy's room. And Inaki's going to help us run some network cable when he gets here so we can all have interwebs, since Rob hooked us up with his old router. <3 We cleaned the living room last night, and I managed to set up the computer desk with another table so me and Angie can use it to draw when we're out there. <3 Hopefully we'll get to the kitchen soon, but if it's a flaming mess when you get here, Auldy, don't mind it. Four college-age kids living in one place and working all the time means nothing gets cleaned. x_x
At least it doesn't smell like it did when I tackled the dishes last. I wanted to DIE.
I should wrap this up, lots to do today. Gotta run out and get foods and stuff for the critters and then clean. x_x
