Another jillofthejungle-inspired entry...

[obliviousally_lj]

Been thinking all this 'romantic' crap that I don't really care for. Like how damned wonderful it'd be to stay up all night long with an SO and then go home at about 7am and hit the sack. Imagine that...just doing whatever. Cruising town, speeding towards the city limits, clubbing, slumming it until you're sober at some Village Inn because it's the only place open after 2pm, then taking off to the desert or mountains or something to sky-watch...or something else. And then when you can barely keep your eyes open, driving back home just after the sun's come up and shutting out the light and going to sleep. Spending all that time with someone who drives you crazy.

I want that so badly, it's insane. Hell, I want that just with my friends. I want to be so free and have no responsibilites. It's so hard to be an adult when you have such a childish wanderlust nature. Like when I lived on the island. That was beautiful. Could just go to the beach and it's like you were so far away from everything. Could go down to Okracoke and sleep on the beach and no one would bother you. I want to take TJ there so badly. I want to stick us in the car and just drive. It doesn't matter where, just as long as we're not here and we're out seeing the country. Visiting stupid roadside tourist traps and laughing our asses off at each other in a cheap motel room.

I just want to feel alive. I don't know, Warren makes one feel so useless. Like a waste. Maybe it's the winter. The cold and the snow, and nothing seeming alive and vibrant.

I feel alive when I'm on the move. I swear I have gypsy in me. I mean, I loved living at the hotel, I loved being on the island, I loved traveling and being anywhere but a typical house or apartment.

But maybe I really am a romantic. Hiding under this tough, independent, 'I-don't-need-anyone' demeanor. Cause I don't want to be this squishy, vunerable girl.

I'm babbling again, and none of this makes any sense. But I can never put these feelings into proper words. They make sense in my head, but not written or typed.

Comments

[sonofberkowitz.livejournal.com]

That's the funny thing about being a romantic. Everyone is one, at some point, in some situation, but not everyone realizes it.

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

I guess I'm hopeless in alot of ways then.

Or my hormones are still out of whack.

>_o

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[sonofberkowitz.livejournal.com]

Or hopelessly hormonal.

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

Shut up, Scorpio! :P

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[sonofberkowitz.livejournal.com]

Make me!

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

If you say so... *gets out the duct tape and advances*

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[sonofberkowitz.livejournal.com]

I am unsure how to react.

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

Don't. It'll make things easier for me. :D That way I don't have to try to pull the tape apart when it gets stuck together from your struggling.

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[sonofberkowitz.livejournal.com]

You're the expert.

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

I-- Hey! What's that supposed to mean?

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[kassil.livejournal.com]

*clears his throat*
*lifts a single claw into the air*

...Kinky.

*flees into the night on dragonwings*

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

*shifty-eyes* Shush your mouth, dragon! *shakes a flaming torch at you*

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[kassil.livejournal.com]

*turns a lazy loop-de-loop in the air high above*
A flaming torch, hmm?
Duct tape and flames. My, my...
*soars a bit higher, to get out of the range of any AA guns in the area*

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

>_>

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>_> <_< >_> I'm a firechild, what do you expect?!?

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[kassil.livejournal.com]

That explains the fact that the torch is aflame, at least!

[ninjatanuki.livejournal.com]

yah, i know exactly what you mean, i'm like that too

[kassil.livejournal.com]

...Welcome to my world.

There's nothing quite like moving from place to place, seeing things new and old alike...

Too bad my SO has something of a stay-at-home nature - so much so that I can't get her to decide to move out of her family's home.

[spiralpegasus.livejournal.com]

I think it's Warren. It find it even more depressing than home and I live in the same corner of the state!

I think, sometime this summer, we're all going to have to head out to East Harbor. You, me, Joy, TJ, Nacho, Matt, Skarlette, Mr. Secret Crush, and whoever the fark else we can drag along with us. Trust me, there really is more to Ohio than a burnt out industrial hellhole. :D

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

I really think so. And coupled with how close to the mill I live? Yeah, it's pretty barren. I mean, I love it downtown and in the parks, but now a bit less in Perkins since they put that goddamn stupid 'theatre' deal where the small patch of woods used to be. Packard blows now, cause all they good playsets are gone (godforbid, cause they're wooden!). I mean, the only place I reallyreally love to go to get away is the Ledges and that's a ways out there. Can't always go. :P

That'd be fantastic. A bunch of geeks on a camping/road trip. :D Will anyone survive without MUSHing?!? Tune in next episode! XD

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[sonofberkowitz.livejournal.com]

It's not so hard. I stopped twitching, and no longer shout out my needs for a 'MU* fix.' Also, I stopped prefacing everything I do with a :.

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

*laughs* I still have a tendency, when I'm MUSHing an talking on AIM simuntaneously, I'll preface everything with a : or a ". It's crazy. o_o

And I just get twitchy when I don't get my much-needed Matrix RP fix. >_o

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[kassil.livejournal.com]

Hmm.
I could hack together a pen-and-paper Matrix RPG for you, if you want. ;) Matrix tabletop roleplaying! Hell, I might even be able to "tweak" White Wolf, if you want, since you're familiar with that system.

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[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

OMG! I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeed it. o_o And I was actually tossing that idea around earlier. o_o Creepy. White Wolf might not be too hard to work with. I know we were going to to Resident Evil with modified White Wolf rules and stuff. Hmmm...