Fuckin' christ...

*points to keeperofdreams*

I've fucking done it again.

I can't understand why anyone would let some raving fuck chase them away from somewhere. It's fucking stupid. I don't give a fuck if people think your art sucks, that doesn't mean you back down. I mean, jeezus christ, I'd figure you'd have learned from the best on that. I can't standf it when you think your art is crap. People do like it, and even if you think my stuff is better, that doesn't mean you throw in the fucking towel and say "oh, screw this". You know the reason my stuff is even halfway decent? Because I practice. I draw and draw and draw. That's all I did through HS. And did I give a fuck when people didn't like my work? Did I get pissed when I wasn't getting any comments at Side7? Or and praising e-mails? Or hits on my website? NO. Because I was enjoying what I was doing and I was doing it FOR MYSELF. Not everyone else.

And you know the only person that ever wavered my decision to draw things a certian way? To fix this or that? You. And you're the only person who's ever made me cut back on drawing and stop showing people alot.

Why?

Because I didn't want you to be unhappy.

And now I'm seriously condisering putting off and comic-type stuff I wanted to do. Because things were going so fucking well. I was enjoying showing you my stuff, confident that you were cool with your art and all that.

Why?

Because I don't want you to be unhappy.

(no subject)

~ydnacnuum

[ excerpt from 'pinkorangred']
"please appreciate; i dont expect much attention for this, as it isnt some anime chick with huge boobs and angel wings or a photo of a pretty sunset/landscape, or some 3d program filter produced aesthetically pleasing piece of garbage. but.
try to detach yourself from all of the ideals of what's "good art" and what's not, and learn to look at things in a way such that *you* decide what you like. learn to create and draw with this, too. thinking more of the emotion and push behind the piece, rather than whether or not it will meet the unspoken guidlines and rules people have told you make "good art"; perfect proportions, certain colors, certain poses and themes, certain concepts of origionality... etc.
try to make something because you want to; and love a piece because its part of you and it expresses you. your ideas. the world you see around you. use yourself as a sort of a filter. a prizm. taking one thing that everybody else sees as a plain line of light, and turn it into something unique and beautiful. something you.
learn to appriciate things, and not depend on comments or views to determine the 'quality' of your art. draw what you feel and feel what you draw.
i'm not dissing or saying "don't draw anime cutey stuff!" hellno, i do that and i love it. but. what i'm trying to say is
when you want to make a statment with your art
when you want to express yourself through art
don't limit yourself to unspoken rules and standards.
do whatever the fuck you want.
popularity and admiration come naturally, after that
but,
i'm pretty sure that
when/if you ever learn to do what i'm trying to (clumsily) describe
popularity and admiration will only be a bonus
and not a cause."

That's the most fucking brilliant thing I've ever heard anyone say. Thank you, Dana.

Heee.

I fuckin' love Fast and The Furious. :D

Two new pics at DA. I'm trying to deal with the subject of my last posts, but the least I can do is be supportive. :P It's just difficult for me to understand why people give up things. :P Maybe I'm just weird.

I wanna draw pr0n. I blame the Orochi-bunni. >_> Nice pr0n. Yesyes.

I need to turn the heat down in the bedroom. :P