Am I completely numb?
Feb. 1st, 2003 02:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
obliviousally_ljI mean, I'm not spatzing about the shuttle crash... Is that wrong? Am I some kind of freak that I'm so desensitized towards death and destruction that it doesn't phase me? At all.
Maybe it's cause I don't remember the Challenger. Maybe it's because worse shit happens every single day that no one hears about. No one cares about that.
I just can't get it to phase me. I can't make myself care about something that really doesn't matter to me.
Maybe I'm a heartless bitch. I don't know.
But, for some reason, this worries me, that I can't make myself care about something like this.
I don't know. I've been noticing these flaws. And, I'm not masqueradeing around as someone else. This is me. But, lately, it hasn't felt like it. And that worries me. What if I'm not who I am? ...that doesn't make sense.
I'm babbling now...
Maybe it's cause I don't remember the Challenger. Maybe it's because worse shit happens every single day that no one hears about. No one cares about that.
I just can't get it to phase me. I can't make myself care about something that really doesn't matter to me.
Maybe I'm a heartless bitch. I don't know.
But, for some reason, this worries me, that I can't make myself care about something like this.
I don't know. I've been noticing these flaws. And, I'm not masqueradeing around as someone else. This is me. But, lately, it hasn't felt like it. And that worries me. What if I'm not who I am? ...that doesn't make sense.
I'm babbling now...
