Deep breaths.
Apr. 6th, 2011 11:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
obliviousally_ljI'm really, really upset about something right now and I had this long, long entry ready to post when I sat back and considered something. The thing I'm upset about is directly related to a lack of medication. I know all of these symptoms, all of this lashing out against friends and loved ones. The endless lack of explainations, the closing down, the non-stop drinking, the hiding from the world.
It happens almost like clockwork, but I never seem to realize it at first. Medicine stops being taken, complaints about everyone start rising. Moods and personality gets out of control, confusing. You inquire, only to be met with no clear answer on any of the issues.
So I will restrain myself from bitching, though I want to for reasons spanning from PMS to anger. I will wait until morning when moods have passed and try to figure out a reliable schedule for medication.
It happens almost like clockwork, but I never seem to realize it at first. Medicine stops being taken, complaints about everyone start rising. Moods and personality gets out of control, confusing. You inquire, only to be met with no clear answer on any of the issues.
So I will restrain myself from bitching, though I want to for reasons spanning from PMS to anger. I will wait until morning when moods have passed and try to figure out a reliable schedule for medication.
