Today sucks. Again.
Oct. 6th, 2010 05:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
obliviousally_ljThe only upside to today so far is that the sun is FINALLY out.
I got a C on my Art History exam. I was happy about this until I realized there was a five point curve on top of the five extra points tacked on from the quiz the other day. Which means, in reality, I got a D. Which sucks because I thought I did a lot better than that. Friday I'm going to see what I missed or got wrong on the exam and find out if it was my retarded dyslexia or genuine wrong answers that I didn't know.
I'm firmly convinced I have SOME sort of mild dyslexia. I can read things and be ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE that the way I read it was correct until someone points out that it actually says something different. I get words mixed up a lot in sentences and that really screws me over on exams/tests/quizzes, even when I go back and double check the questions. Sometimes I won't notice what I did wrong until I see the paper later on or, like above, someone points it out to me.
It's really, really frustrating and I really, really hate it because I go out of my way to be careful and read things carefully, but that doesn't always work.
I'm PMSing, on the rag and I fucking forgot any tampons before leaving the house. Lovely.
I'm reacting negatively to almost everything. Anything negative anyone says, I'm taking it as a slight against me or an insult against me. I kind of just want to hole up, cry for awhile and sleep until it's over, but I don't get that luxury because I have school and all that. I spent all of yesterday cleaning and installing Windows 7 on the downstairs desktop just so I could avoid a lot of social interaction. I'm just feeling like I'm disappointing everyone lately, myself included.
I can't seem to find a job, despite constant searching and I have to pay rent at the end of the month. I don't have a fallback for November. I'm not waiting on a chunk of school money. In fact, I OWE the school money because they didn't pull it out of my last refund and now I have to - SOMEHOW - pony up $128 because they were fucking lazy. The water might get cut off if I can't put anything on it and I have $5 in the bank.
LIFE'S REAL COOL, GUYS.
Also, my headphones died. Which is like the icing on my shit cake.
I really hate bitching so much, but I don't want to unload it on my friends because it's not their problem. I just want a job again and to not have to worry about my bills/rent. I can live without going out or doing anything fancy. I just want to keep a roof over my head and food in my belly. Fuck everything else. I don't need those things.
I got a C on my Art History exam. I was happy about this until I realized there was a five point curve on top of the five extra points tacked on from the quiz the other day. Which means, in reality, I got a D. Which sucks because I thought I did a lot better than that. Friday I'm going to see what I missed or got wrong on the exam and find out if it was my retarded dyslexia or genuine wrong answers that I didn't know.
I'm firmly convinced I have SOME sort of mild dyslexia. I can read things and be ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE that the way I read it was correct until someone points out that it actually says something different. I get words mixed up a lot in sentences and that really screws me over on exams/tests/quizzes, even when I go back and double check the questions. Sometimes I won't notice what I did wrong until I see the paper later on or, like above, someone points it out to me.
It's really, really frustrating and I really, really hate it because I go out of my way to be careful and read things carefully, but that doesn't always work.
I'm PMSing, on the rag and I fucking forgot any tampons before leaving the house. Lovely.
I'm reacting negatively to almost everything. Anything negative anyone says, I'm taking it as a slight against me or an insult against me. I kind of just want to hole up, cry for awhile and sleep until it's over, but I don't get that luxury because I have school and all that. I spent all of yesterday cleaning and installing Windows 7 on the downstairs desktop just so I could avoid a lot of social interaction. I'm just feeling like I'm disappointing everyone lately, myself included.
I can't seem to find a job, despite constant searching and I have to pay rent at the end of the month. I don't have a fallback for November. I'm not waiting on a chunk of school money. In fact, I OWE the school money because they didn't pull it out of my last refund and now I have to - SOMEHOW - pony up $128 because they were fucking lazy. The water might get cut off if I can't put anything on it and I have $5 in the bank.
LIFE'S REAL COOL, GUYS.
Also, my headphones died. Which is like the icing on my shit cake.
I really hate bitching so much, but I don't want to unload it on my friends because it's not their problem. I just want a job again and to not have to worry about my bills/rent. I can live without going out or doing anything fancy. I just want to keep a roof over my head and food in my belly. Fuck everything else. I don't need those things.
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Date: 2010-10-07 01:49 am (UTC)