obliviousally_lj

I'm feeling very...I don't know. Drained. I didn't do anything grossly out of the ordinary or anything today. Walked up to campus this morning and got an advance on my Flashcard. Found out I'm getting a little less financial aid back than expected (expected $1000, getting back something like $700 and some change), but it's not a huge difference when I remember I'm dropping one of my classes so that I can work. Which gives me back something like $1200. Constant money is more favorable than a lump sum sometimes and my rent will need paid again in October after I pay up August and September.

I don't start the Schwebel room job until the 31st, but the bookstore got back to me and informed me they'd like to hire me in as a temp. I don't know how long it'll be for (probably a month or so, for the beginning of semester rush), but it's something. ~~Hopefully my Tuesday/Thursday work times won't be too much of a hassle, especially considering I'm free on the weekends and most college kids aren't.~~ I thought I'd dreamt that I checked my mail and they said my schedule was okay, but I think I checked it on my phone at some point while I was half asleep and when I actually checked my mail now I WASN'T DREAMING. So that's good. Now to fill out some online forms and let them know I'm available whenever they need me.

I'd still like to find something more stable on campus because I don't expect to be hired in at the bookstore. Mainly because they keep people who've been there awhile. Plus, they're not university funded, so they aren't held by the regulations and stuff the other on-campus jobs are.

There might still be the Prentice Hall Cafe position open, so I'll see what happens with the bookstore before inquiring on that. I didn't respond to it at first because my MWF lunchtimes were full, as I had a class. Since I'll be dropping said class, I'll be free then. Although, it'd be amazing if I could pick up the dishwashing job on my off days (MWF) in the Schwebel room. I'd make around $1200 a month with just those two jobs and that would be ~amazing~. But I don't know if the job's been filled yet

I'll just take one thing at a time for right now. I don't want to overwhelm myself, but I'd at least like to have regular money coming in.

So, like I mentioned, TJ and I walked up to campus this morning to get an advance on my Flashcard. I really just wanted to be able to eat some fast food and pick up some things from the grocery store. I've been responsible and haven't touched the checking account, which has like, $30 (or maybe $40) left in it. I don't want it to overdraft before I get my financial aid. Plus, we had money for groceriess, thanks to my EBT card.

We didn't make it to the grocery store, but we did have lunch at Five Guys, which was nice.

While walking across campus to the Five Guys, we found a wandering garden spider (one of these).

It's a full grown female, which means it's well over an inch or so. She was HUGE. TJ saw it first, just strolling across the sidewalk. I ALMOST STEPPED ON IT. She was mere inches from my flip flop before I looked down and jumped back in terror. TJ's pretty phobic of spiders, but once he realized the spider was just going on its way, we got in closer to check it out.

I've seen garden spiders (though I know them as banana spiders, due to their coloring) lots of time before. They're really cool. But I've always seen them in their webs, which tends to dwarf their size (also, I've seen their webs withstand hurricanes). So seeing one just OUT IN THE OPEN was a little intimidating.

I also realized, after getting a good look at a full grown one, that it's the same species as the little spider we have living on our back porch. I'm going to have to move her if she gets much bigger because the porch isn't terribly big and I don't want to walk by something that huge every day. But there's lots of bushes to the side of the house where she can make a fine web if need be.

After we ate, we went and waited for the bus by Starbucks. We saw two hazmat trucks fly past down 59. I don't know what that was all about, but we're guessing zombie outbreak.

Or it had something to do with the spider. One of the two.

Home, then sleep.

Then I got a text from Jenny which blew into this huge conversation I haven't replied to yet. I'm under the assumption she's probably found my journals or Facebook or something because she mentioned something about me not talking to her because she was pregnant/had a baby.

Honestly, you can have a kid and not send me texts about it all the time. When I responded to her initially this last time, I thought it was my mom texting me because she asked if I was up (it was midnight) so I'd initially replied. But the text I get from her read: 'hey i miss you and you missed her birthday'

WHAT. EVEN.

All she's texted me about (for the most part) has been her baby (and whether I'll come to her birthday party or how the baby's doing or whatever) and the occassional invite to a D&D game or something.

I just...we used to be good friends. I don't have anything against her but (and people can call me an asshole all they like) most people change drastically after having a baby. I know that's part of the whole BABBY thing, the changing. But it just seperates the conversation matter we have. Then I have to try to counter-act it with ridiculous shit like, LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT MY RATS OH THEY'RE SO CUTE or LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN MY HEAD.

Despite being twenty-seven, I just don't have a lot of interest in ~grown up~ things. I'm still playing catch-up with my teenage years while trying to balance the handful of grown-up things I'm required to deal with.

So whatever. If she found journals and stuff, she easily could have noticed I spend more time online talking and, honestly, I only rarely use my phone for actual talking. Texting, yes. But I don't call many people unless I have to or unless it's my mom.

I don't know, I'm not losing sleep over it.

In other news, I found my dad on Facebook. Not sure how I feel about that. But his interests contain such gems like: Cunnilingus Connoisseur, Pillow Fight, Sexy Slang and I eat Grits and say "I reckon" because I am from the South.. Except, you know. You were born in northeast Ohio and all.

BUT HEY WHAT DO I KNOW.

On the other hand, I'm glad we're not close, because that first batch would creep me the fuck out. It kind of does a little because WHO FUCKING SAYS THAT. I swear I'm the only cool person on either side of my family.