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obliviousally_ljI think I FINALLY have my Anthony/Freckles mix done. There may be some additions in the future, depending. But this is pretty solid as it stands. Obviously, the accident and such haven't happened yet, but this is sort of my prediction of how things might go. Most songs are from Freckles' point of view, because they're break up songs and Anthony sort of turns his emotion over all the bullshit to booze and women and partying to numb the pain and all that. Freckles probably get the brunt of the aftermath of the breakup, but she was also the most vocal in the last big argument. But she wasn't the sole cause of it. Obie was. Which shouldn't come as a surprise.
HAPPY RELATIONSHIP
MGMT - Electric Feel
Sun in the Amazon
With the voltage running through her skin
Standing there with nothing on
She gonna teach me how to swim
...
I said "Ooh, girl,
Shock me like an electric eel,
Baby girl,
Turn me on with your electric feel."
I sort of went out of my way to include songs that reference electricty, as Anthony's major is electrical engineering. The 'teach me how to swim' line obviously has multiple meanings as Freckles is his first girlfriend and the first person he sleeps with.
Bird York - Open Wider
Like a mantaray gliding serene through strange farmland,
Newly runaway, I got away clean in your car, in your hands.
Sliding the warm black tongue highway,
Your hands there, so smooth, between between my legs
The cornfields sigh with freedom
Feel the world open wider
(turning me inside out)
This is more of a Freckles song. The reference to cars is because she has an interest in cars from her father. And Anthony was quite intrigued to learn that she can fix and work on her own car.
Kylie Minogue - Magnetic Electric
Oh, oh, oh, oh, don't ask me to dance
I'm scared this feeling's out of my hands
That look just took my breath away
It's plugged me into you
...
And I'm tuning in, tuning in
Slowly like a radio (radio, radio)
You pull me in, pull me in
Baby, and I can't let go
A little bit half-and-half here. I just really wanted an upbeat/dancey/club song.
The Spill Canvas - Connect The Dots
Don't you just love the feeling of my fingertips, circling your lips.
Don't you just love the desire taking hold of you, I can tell you do.
I know all your favorite spots, and tonight we will connect the dots.
...
If your muscles are wound up and tight,
then I will loosen up the knots until it feels right.
The 'dots' are an obvious reference to Freckles' freckles.
Semisonic - Completely Pleased
I wanted to leave you
Completely pleased
Sleep drifting above you
Sweetly released
...
I want to see you smiling, weak in the knees
I want to see you come, come, completelely pleased
I want to give you something priceless and free
This could be from either side, but it's a cute, unselfish sort of sex song. Which I think works for them at this point in their relationship.
--
THE ACCIDENT
Stabilo - Kidding Ourselves
And I, I wanted to curl up beside you
And die, at least for an hour or more
Depending on how you react
Depending on how you respond to me
I'll stick around
...
We're kidding ourselves, kidding ourselves
So what do you want from me
'Cause as long as there's a payphone and a taxi cab I'm alright 'cause I can leave home
We're kidding ourselves, kidding ourselves
So what are you waiting for
'Cause even with a fast car and a cellphone I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone
After the news breaks about Anthony's parents passing, Freckles treks out to Boston to see and comfort him.
Straylight Run - Mistakes We Knew We Were Making
So we bottled and shelved all our regrets,
Let them ferment and came back to our senses,
Drove back home and slept a few days,
Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be
...
We'll get over it,
Sad, strong, safe, and sober,
We'll move forward,
And know where we went wrong,
But you can't go home again.
Trying to make the best of a bad situation.
The Mountain Goats - Old College Try
From the entrance to the exit
Is longer than it looks from where we stand
I want to say I'm sorry for stuff I haven't done yet
Things will shortly get completely out of hand
I can feel it in the rotten air tonight
In the tips of my fingers
In the skin on my face
In the weak last gasp of the evening's dying light
In the way those eyes I've always loved illuminate this place
This is a half-and-half song. The 'I want to say I'm sorry for stuff I haven't done yet' is a bit of foreshadowing to The Fight and things Freckles says out of anger.
Ani DiFranco - School Night
She went over to his apartment
Clutching her decision
And he said, "Did you come here to tell me goodbye?"
So she built a skyscraper of procrastination
And then she leaned out the twenty-fifth floor window
Of her reply
And she felt like an actress
Just reading her lines
When she finally said
"Yes. It's really goodbye this time,"
And far below was the blacktop
And the tiny toy cars
And it all fell so fast
And it all fell so far
...
And she said:
"You are a miracle but that is not all,
You are also a stiff drink and I am on call.
You are a party and I am a school night,
And I'm lookin' for my door key,
But you are my porch light."
This is more of Freckles' internal thoughts. She doesn't want to leave Anthony, but things are wearing down like that's the only option. He's withdrawn and generally difficult to deal with.
--
X
Vampire Weekend - The Kids Don't Stand a Chance
You criticize the practice
By murdering their plans
Ignoring all the history
Denying them romance
...
The pin-striped men of morning
Are coming for to dance
Forty-million dollars
The kids don't stand a chance
This song sticks out like a sore thumb, but it's supposed to. It's the token Obie song. It was rpetty much the icing on the cake and works well stuck around the time of the breakup. He's the main reason for it, though neither of them realize it.
--
POST-BREAKUP
Emmy The Great - Canopies and Grapes
When I get to sleep I'll dream again of canopies and grapes
And wake shaking from the knowledge that the mattress holds your shape
I assume my phone is dead because it hasn't rung for months
...
Spend some time out to resuscitate my soul
Take up smoking and drink carrot juice and grow
Teach the mattress to expel you from its folds
Then dry my eyes and keep on walking til the motion makes me strong
Until one day i realise I don't remember that you're gone
We'll be strangers
who were lovers
I'll recover
It's so weird how time goes on
This is a Freckles song. Eventually, she gets over Anthony, but when they meet again later, he doesn't recognize her. 'Strangers who were lovers'.
Mandy Moore - Few Days Down
It's a take-out weekend
It's a fake-out smile and pretend
If nobody sees you cry
You can say it was raining outside
...
And all that you want
Is a few days down
All that you need
A little time to drown
It's to be expected
With all the weight you carry 'round
All that you want is
A Few Days Down
These slowly start to turn into Pepper songs at this point. Plus, all through Freckles' college years, she's known as the 'girl who dated Anthony Stark', since they were in tabloids and all that.
Casiotone For The Painfully Alone - Tonight Was A Disaster
And you'll say that it's no big deal
But it's the shake in your voice
That gives it away, how you feel
And you couldn't slam the door any faster
...
And you'll say that it's no big deal
But it's the tears on your face
That give away how you feel
And you'll say tonight
Tonight was a disaster
Just because she's mostly over him, doesn't mean she's forgotten him. She also carries some guilt about the breakup. Once she had time to cool down after The Fight, she realized she'd been in the wrong. But going back to apologize just got her a conversation with Obie.
Spill Canvas - 3685
I hope you never forget the tapping at your window
With the harsh cold and the jealousy
Running through my bones
We were both selfish, but I think I was more
...
I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of myself that I have never seen
Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun
And I guess these things just tend to fall apart
Just a generic break up song that I thought seemed to fit pretty well. Sometimes the song doesn't need to have a specific meaning, but just seems to click for me.
Matt Nathanson - Come On Get Higher
I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said
...
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
This could maybe be from Tony. If he wasn't drunk all the time and had feeling on occassion. Specifically the 'violent, sweet, perfect words' line.
--
EMPLOYMENT
Bird York - Wicked Little High (Drawn To You)
Hey Mister Wrong
You're the tingle in my jeans
You're everything I don't want
But everything I need
I see other guys
But their kisses don't mean nothin'
Cause you're what I have in mind
I die everytime you walk by
I can't hide that I'm drawn to you
Desire is such a wicked little high
When the one you want is blind to you
Eventually, though cosmic forces, she does end up working for Tony in the familiar PA position. Obviously, his charm never faded...
Sia - Academia
I am a dash and you are a dot
When will you see that I am all that you've got
I'm a binary code that you cracked long ago
But to you I'm just a novel that you wish you'd never wrote
I'm greater than X and lesser than Y, so why is it
That I still can't catch your eye?
You're a cryptic crossword, a song I've never heard
While I sit here drawing circles I'm afraid of being hurt
...
Oh academia you can't pick me up
Soothe me with your words when I need your love
This was on another Tony/Pepper mix I downloaded before and I really liked the academic references.
Sara Bareilles - Between The Lines
I thought I thought I was ready to bleed
That we'd move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late, two choices to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He'd already left with the other
So i've learned to listen through silence
...
Leave unsaid, unspoken
Eyes wide shut, unopened
You and me, always be
You and me, always between the lines
Because Tony and Pepper are never front stage and obvious. But always between the lines.
Bell X1 - West Of Her Spine
Sometimes early in the morning
I watch her breathing rise and fall
I've spilled in drunk beside her
In the stillness of dawn
See how her hair spills over
Like frayed ends of twine
All wild and wrapped around her
Like these wandering arms of mine
Well I hope they find a soft spot
Where I can lie for a while
Just south of her shoulder
And west of her spine
...
Now careful not to wake her
I trace back along the twine
To where her neve endings sing
Of too much of my time
Perhaps remembering what he once had? Or, perhaps, just fucking drunk.
Monkey Swallows the Universe - Martin
It all began in Spring when he was sat in that chair looking so old and distant and half dead
And he began to think of all the books he hadn’t read and all the memories lost and that’s when he said
“Oh baby don’t you look at me no more
I’m lazy untalented and poor
I can’t give you everything that you ask for
Why don’t you go go go?”
...
She said “How’m I gonna go when you’re sitting on my coat?
Looks like I will have to stay til you’re on your feet again
Baby you’re just the same as me, I feel that way from time to time,
But you will be fine.”
This is, like, one of my #1 Tony/Pepper songs.
Goddamn I'm a huge fag. D: Dunno if I'm actually gonna whip up a proper fanmix with a cover and such or not, though.
I don't normally do stuff like this, but I thought I'd give it a try!
HAPPY RELATIONSHIP
MGMT - Electric Feel
Sun in the Amazon
With the voltage running through her skin
Standing there with nothing on
She gonna teach me how to swim
...
I said "Ooh, girl,
Shock me like an electric eel,
Baby girl,
Turn me on with your electric feel."
I sort of went out of my way to include songs that reference electricty, as Anthony's major is electrical engineering. The 'teach me how to swim' line obviously has multiple meanings as Freckles is his first girlfriend and the first person he sleeps with.
Bird York - Open Wider
Like a mantaray gliding serene through strange farmland,
Newly runaway, I got away clean in your car, in your hands.
Sliding the warm black tongue highway,
Your hands there, so smooth, between between my legs
The cornfields sigh with freedom
Feel the world open wider
(turning me inside out)
This is more of a Freckles song. The reference to cars is because she has an interest in cars from her father. And Anthony was quite intrigued to learn that she can fix and work on her own car.
Kylie Minogue - Magnetic Electric
Oh, oh, oh, oh, don't ask me to dance
I'm scared this feeling's out of my hands
That look just took my breath away
It's plugged me into you
...
And I'm tuning in, tuning in
Slowly like a radio (radio, radio)
You pull me in, pull me in
Baby, and I can't let go
A little bit half-and-half here. I just really wanted an upbeat/dancey/club song.
The Spill Canvas - Connect The Dots
Don't you just love the feeling of my fingertips, circling your lips.
Don't you just love the desire taking hold of you, I can tell you do.
I know all your favorite spots, and tonight we will connect the dots.
...
If your muscles are wound up and tight,
then I will loosen up the knots until it feels right.
The 'dots' are an obvious reference to Freckles' freckles.
Semisonic - Completely Pleased
I wanted to leave you
Completely pleased
Sleep drifting above you
Sweetly released
...
I want to see you smiling, weak in the knees
I want to see you come, come, completelely pleased
I want to give you something priceless and free
This could be from either side, but it's a cute, unselfish sort of sex song. Which I think works for them at this point in their relationship.
--
THE ACCIDENT
Stabilo - Kidding Ourselves
And I, I wanted to curl up beside you
And die, at least for an hour or more
Depending on how you react
Depending on how you respond to me
I'll stick around
...
We're kidding ourselves, kidding ourselves
So what do you want from me
'Cause as long as there's a payphone and a taxi cab I'm alright 'cause I can leave home
We're kidding ourselves, kidding ourselves
So what are you waiting for
'Cause even with a fast car and a cellphone I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone
After the news breaks about Anthony's parents passing, Freckles treks out to Boston to see and comfort him.
Straylight Run - Mistakes We Knew We Were Making
So we bottled and shelved all our regrets,
Let them ferment and came back to our senses,
Drove back home and slept a few days,
Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be
...
We'll get over it,
Sad, strong, safe, and sober,
We'll move forward,
And know where we went wrong,
But you can't go home again.
Trying to make the best of a bad situation.
The Mountain Goats - Old College Try
From the entrance to the exit
Is longer than it looks from where we stand
I want to say I'm sorry for stuff I haven't done yet
Things will shortly get completely out of hand
I can feel it in the rotten air tonight
In the tips of my fingers
In the skin on my face
In the weak last gasp of the evening's dying light
In the way those eyes I've always loved illuminate this place
This is a half-and-half song. The 'I want to say I'm sorry for stuff I haven't done yet' is a bit of foreshadowing to The Fight and things Freckles says out of anger.
Ani DiFranco - School Night
She went over to his apartment
Clutching her decision
And he said, "Did you come here to tell me goodbye?"
So she built a skyscraper of procrastination
And then she leaned out the twenty-fifth floor window
Of her reply
And she felt like an actress
Just reading her lines
When she finally said
"Yes. It's really goodbye this time,"
And far below was the blacktop
And the tiny toy cars
And it all fell so fast
And it all fell so far
...
And she said:
"You are a miracle but that is not all,
You are also a stiff drink and I am on call.
You are a party and I am a school night,
And I'm lookin' for my door key,
But you are my porch light."
This is more of Freckles' internal thoughts. She doesn't want to leave Anthony, but things are wearing down like that's the only option. He's withdrawn and generally difficult to deal with.
--
X
Vampire Weekend - The Kids Don't Stand a Chance
You criticize the practice
By murdering their plans
Ignoring all the history
Denying them romance
...
The pin-striped men of morning
Are coming for to dance
Forty-million dollars
The kids don't stand a chance
This song sticks out like a sore thumb, but it's supposed to. It's the token Obie song. It was rpetty much the icing on the cake and works well stuck around the time of the breakup. He's the main reason for it, though neither of them realize it.
--
POST-BREAKUP
Emmy The Great - Canopies and Grapes
When I get to sleep I'll dream again of canopies and grapes
And wake shaking from the knowledge that the mattress holds your shape
I assume my phone is dead because it hasn't rung for months
...
Spend some time out to resuscitate my soul
Take up smoking and drink carrot juice and grow
Teach the mattress to expel you from its folds
Then dry my eyes and keep on walking til the motion makes me strong
Until one day i realise I don't remember that you're gone
We'll be strangers
who were lovers
I'll recover
It's so weird how time goes on
This is a Freckles song. Eventually, she gets over Anthony, but when they meet again later, he doesn't recognize her. 'Strangers who were lovers'.
Mandy Moore - Few Days Down
It's a take-out weekend
It's a fake-out smile and pretend
If nobody sees you cry
You can say it was raining outside
...
And all that you want
Is a few days down
All that you need
A little time to drown
It's to be expected
With all the weight you carry 'round
All that you want is
A Few Days Down
These slowly start to turn into Pepper songs at this point. Plus, all through Freckles' college years, she's known as the 'girl who dated Anthony Stark', since they were in tabloids and all that.
Casiotone For The Painfully Alone - Tonight Was A Disaster
And you'll say that it's no big deal
But it's the shake in your voice
That gives it away, how you feel
And you couldn't slam the door any faster
...
And you'll say that it's no big deal
But it's the tears on your face
That give away how you feel
And you'll say tonight
Tonight was a disaster
Just because she's mostly over him, doesn't mean she's forgotten him. She also carries some guilt about the breakup. Once she had time to cool down after The Fight, she realized she'd been in the wrong. But going back to apologize just got her a conversation with Obie.
Spill Canvas - 3685
I hope you never forget the tapping at your window
With the harsh cold and the jealousy
Running through my bones
We were both selfish, but I think I was more
...
I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of myself that I have never seen
Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun
And I guess these things just tend to fall apart
Just a generic break up song that I thought seemed to fit pretty well. Sometimes the song doesn't need to have a specific meaning, but just seems to click for me.
Matt Nathanson - Come On Get Higher
I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said
...
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
This could maybe be from Tony. If he wasn't drunk all the time and had feeling on occassion. Specifically the 'violent, sweet, perfect words' line.
--
EMPLOYMENT
Bird York - Wicked Little High (Drawn To You)
Hey Mister Wrong
You're the tingle in my jeans
You're everything I don't want
But everything I need
I see other guys
But their kisses don't mean nothin'
Cause you're what I have in mind
I die everytime you walk by
I can't hide that I'm drawn to you
Desire is such a wicked little high
When the one you want is blind to you
Eventually, though cosmic forces, she does end up working for Tony in the familiar PA position. Obviously, his charm never faded...
Sia - Academia
I am a dash and you are a dot
When will you see that I am all that you've got
I'm a binary code that you cracked long ago
But to you I'm just a novel that you wish you'd never wrote
I'm greater than X and lesser than Y, so why is it
That I still can't catch your eye?
You're a cryptic crossword, a song I've never heard
While I sit here drawing circles I'm afraid of being hurt
...
Oh academia you can't pick me up
Soothe me with your words when I need your love
This was on another Tony/Pepper mix I downloaded before and I really liked the academic references.
Sara Bareilles - Between The Lines
I thought I thought I was ready to bleed
That we'd move from the shadows on the wall
And stand in the center of it all
Too late, two choices to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He'd already left with the other
So i've learned to listen through silence
...
Leave unsaid, unspoken
Eyes wide shut, unopened
You and me, always be
You and me, always between the lines
Because Tony and Pepper are never front stage and obvious. But always between the lines.
Bell X1 - West Of Her Spine
Sometimes early in the morning
I watch her breathing rise and fall
I've spilled in drunk beside her
In the stillness of dawn
See how her hair spills over
Like frayed ends of twine
All wild and wrapped around her
Like these wandering arms of mine
Well I hope they find a soft spot
Where I can lie for a while
Just south of her shoulder
And west of her spine
...
Now careful not to wake her
I trace back along the twine
To where her neve endings sing
Of too much of my time
Perhaps remembering what he once had? Or, perhaps, just fucking drunk.
Monkey Swallows the Universe - Martin
It all began in Spring when he was sat in that chair looking so old and distant and half dead
And he began to think of all the books he hadn’t read and all the memories lost and that’s when he said
“Oh baby don’t you look at me no more
I’m lazy untalented and poor
I can’t give you everything that you ask for
Why don’t you go go go?”
...
She said “How’m I gonna go when you’re sitting on my coat?
Looks like I will have to stay til you’re on your feet again
Baby you’re just the same as me, I feel that way from time to time,
But you will be fine.”
This is, like, one of my #1 Tony/Pepper songs.
Goddamn I'm a huge fag. D: Dunno if I'm actually gonna whip up a proper fanmix with a cover and such or not, though.
I don't normally do stuff like this, but I thought I'd give it a try!
