obliviousally_lj

I.

Can't.

Win.

I really, really can't. No matter what I do, it's never good enough. No matter how much I stress that things are ours, it's irrelevant. I do everything I can to make sure things are fair and even, but it's apparently not enough.

I already feel bad enough about not getting her what she really wanted for Christmas. Because it's too far out of my price range. When I want to buy her expensive things, she yells at me. $25 toys are too muh most days.

I feel guilty for lucking out for my mom getting the things we wanted to pick up anyhow. A new digital camera and a skillet. I feel guilty for leaving her home alone for a few hours while I did the obligatory family thing at my mom's. I feel guilty because my check didn't post early like I was hoping so I could pick her up a few more gifts.

I feel guilty because nothing is ever good enough.

tl;dr: baww baww wangst baww