obliviousally_lj

I feel like I'm PMSing. But I generally get cranky-moody-pants BEFORE my period. Not after. This distresses me.

I woke up at 9AM and suddenly realized I was supposed to go into work at 5AM. I completely forgot. But I wasn't SCHEDULED to work today. And Randy said I didn't HAVE to come in if I didn't want, but I said I would anyhow. But I was out ALL DAY yesterday with my mom and I had completely forgotten about it.

I have the feeling I'm going to end up getting 'talked' to at work. And then I'm just going to have to throw it all on the table and explain what's been going on.

I'm stressed about

money.
the housing situation.
the fact I have to choose between putting gas in the car to go to work, or buying food to eat so I, y'know, live.
the fact that if I don't put gas in the car and go to work, I won't have money to eat with.
my credit card needing paid off.
my internet bill needing paid off.
the fact I have a pile of commissions to do and absolutely no motivation to do them.
the fact that we have NO HOT WATER.
the fleas.
Mallow and Waffle's health.
my lack of motivation and general apathy lately.
my art not selling.
pretty much everything.

I really, really loathe being like this. And I'm continuing to run myself ragged and when I'm finally able to sit down and rest, all I do is sleep. I sleep, work and, if I remember to, eat.

So, I don't know.