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[obliviousally_lj]

Yes I do.

Work was cool. Get to watch TV, not worked ike a dog. Very cool. Half hour breaks, hour lunch. Get off a helf hour early. Easy work, too. Hot, but easy.

Booya, Drift! The comic is scanned! And needs to be cleaned and colored... Whee.

I feel bad. I was reading TJ's latest entry, and I'm just...blah. I really wish she wasn't so negative about it. But, I guess I've sort of desensitized myself about relationships. I don't want one. Seriously. I'm in no hurry to get a boyfriend. I'm happy with guy friends. A relationship means stress. And stress means an unhappy Alaina. Unfun. And we've been talking about how I felt when she was with Brad. I was still trying to get over Shawn, from, like, 3 years beforehand. And I was depressed, and always felt left out. It was always Brad and TJ, Criswy and Adam, and me. Alone. Sitting in the front seat of the car with the hag. While everyone in the back was all happyhappy. I hated it. And I know TJ didn't do any of that on purpose, I know she tried to balance friends and relations. But it still hurt. Now, I'm over Shawn and have come to the conclusion that I don't want a man. Not right now, and probably not in the near future. Okay, it is partially because I don't want to hurt TJ, but it's more the fact that I'm just not interested. And besides, the guys around here are low grade. Like the fell out of someone's ass.

I think, once TJ goes to college (which will happen, Angela willing...), she'll find someone. People treat you like you're human in college. I like that. TJ needs that. She needs to know that she -is- worth someone's love and affection. Y'know, not like the sisterly love and affection we have... >_>

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Yes I do.

Work was cool. Get to watch TV, not worked ike a dog. Very cool. Half hour breaks, hour lunch. Get off a helf hour early. Easy work, too. Hot, but easy.

Booya, Drift! The comic is scanned! And needs to be cleaned and colored... Whee.

I feel bad. I was reading <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/keeprofdreams">TJ's</a> latest entry, and I'm just...blah. I really wish she wasn't so negative about it. But, I guess I've sort of desensitized myself about relationships. I don't want one. Seriously. I'm in no hurry to get a boyfriend. I'm happy with guy friends. A relationship means stress. And stress means an unhappy Alaina. Unfun. And we've been talking about how I felt when she was with Brad. I was still trying to get over Shawn, from, like, 3 years beforehand. And I was depressed, and always felt left out. It was always Brad and TJ, Criswy and Adam, and me. Alone. Sitting in the front seat of the car with the hag. While everyone in the back was all happyhappy. I hated it. And I know TJ didn't do any of that on purpose, I know she tried to balance friends and relations. But it still hurt. Now, I'm over Shawn and have come to the conclusion that I don't want a man. Not right now, and probably not in the near future. Okay, it is partially because I don't want to hurt TJ, but it's more the fact that I'm just not interested. And besides, the guys around here are low grade. Like the fell out of someone's ass.

I think, once TJ goes to college (which will happen, Angela willing...), she'll find someone. People treat you like you're human in college. I like that. TJ needs that. She needs to know that she -is- worth someone's love and affection. Y'know, not like the sisterly love and affection we have... >_> <_<

I just hate to see her depressed about anything. And I told her I'd ask the mechanic guy if he's single, but if he's not (or worse, not interested), it's gonna hurt me just to tell her that. Then she'll be even more depressed and...gah. >_< Emotions blow. :P

And it's not like Shawn (across the street, TJ's Shawn, so to speak...) isn't being an ass about what happened in JANUARY. He actually came up to me the other dy when I went out to start up the car, cause I was out there alone. Like he couldn't walk over one of the MANY times he's seen TJ outside. >_< So fucking ignorant. I mean, they had -something- going on, but they were too alike to tolerate each other for long periods of time. And she liked Shawn. *sighs* I just wish there was something I could do...

Anyways, enough of my babbling.

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[spiralpegasus.livejournal.com]

Pfeh, you're both a pair of cuties. (Of course, coming from someone my age that might seem lecherous, but it's true!) Someday, you'll both find the man of your dreams. When you're ready, it'll come. :)

[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....lecherous. :D

[spiralpegasus.livejournal.com]

Now she tells me.

[obliviousally.livejournal.com]

But of course!