"Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies."

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we all begin with good intent
love was raw and young
we believed that we could change ourselves
the past could be undone
but we carry on our backs the burden
time always reveals
the lonely light of morning
the wound that would not heal
it's the bitter taste of losing everything
that i have held so dear.


You know how everyone says there's someone out there just for you? Someone who you can trust with everything. Someone who you never have to be afraid of opening up to and who makes you happier than anyone has ever made you?

You see, everything esentially began with this. Since then, those feelings have only gotten stronger between me and TJ. No, we're not dating, no, we're not bi, no we're not engaging potentionally hot sexual activities. We're simply in love with each other. It's extremely confusing and both simple and complex at the same time.

We've narrowed it down to this: We're soulmates. We will always be there for each other and nothing will ever change that. We depend on each other just to live some days, and more than often, to be happy. We're dependent on each other on levels that we don't even understand.

But this 'shocking' revalation does not mean we can't love other people. It doesn't mean we can't persue relationships with others. But, for some reason, that's the drama we've been getting about it. Maybe I think differently, maybe I'm just insane, but I'm prefectly capable and see no problem with loving more than one person. Even in such a deep and meaningful way.

Nothing has changed from now to a month ago, to even a year ago. We just acknowldge it now. I'm sure everyone has known, but no one wanted to say anything or to assume what might not be true.

But please don't put a label on us. I hate labels and there really is no label that properly describes our relationship. We're just TJ and Ally. And that's that. Or maybe I'll just start sticking to telling everyone TJ's my pet. I get lots of great looks for that.

Life is too short to worry about what people think about you or to worry about your reputation. I'm not ashamed of what I feel for TJ. I'm not going to hide it from people because they might not like it. Screw them. I'm going to live my life. I'm going to be happy and make the best of it that I can. Even if that means taking a huge risk and running with it. It's not worth it to be cautious, I've learned, makes thing extremely boring.

And I hope all the drama erupting from this situation gets solved. I hope people can accept it. But if not, then oh well. That's the way life goes, I suppose.

I wanted there to be more to this, to, y'know, explain it better, but I guess I can't. It just IS. And that's all there is to it.

"Maybe there aren't such things as good friends or bad friends. Maybe there are just friends. People who stand by you when you're hurt and help you feel not so lonely. Maybe they're worth being scared for, and hoping for, and living for; maybe worth dying for, too, if that's what it has to be. No good friends. No bad friends. Only people you want, need to be with; people who build their houses in your heart."
- Stephen King, It

Comments

[spiralpegasus.livejournal.com]

Yep, that's all there is. *snugs* We'll always be here for both of you as well. No worries.

[carvedinshadows.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you two got everything figured out, to some extent. More importantly, I'm glad the two of you are HAPPY. :)

[wolfekko.livejournal.com]

i could really feel the bond between you two when you were both at the station for just that short time. i could tell what close companions you are. long live soul mates!!!!