Fuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
Jan. 26th, 2004 12:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
obliviousally_ljI'm such a shitty fucking person.
But I'm so fucking glad that my best friend can talk to everyone but me. Seriously. What the fuck did I do? I didn't call the movie theatre? I've called 5 fucking times. Every single time, I've been given the runaround. Every. Single Time. They took my name twice to give to the hiring manager so she could call back. Did I get a call? No. Twice I called and she either wasn't there or was busy. And once she was on break. I'm fucking sick of calling there, deluding myself by thinking I'm actually going to get the fucking job. Because I'm not. It's not my fucking fault that I can't get a job. We've barely had the money to put in the gas tank so I can go to the mall and even put in applications. Plus, the weather has not been driving weather lately and no one wants to go out in it. So it's not my fucking fault.
I just don't know what to do. What the fuck can I do when you're fighting with your best friend and she won't even speak to you? But she'll inform everyone else of what at waste of flash I am and how I'm such an bum and won't get a job and so on and so forth. It's just tiring. I don't want to fight like this and I hate being fucking ignored. But anything i say jsut makes the fucking situation worse and screws everything over.
I'm just so sick of people yelling at me for things that are beyond my control.
Fuck it all.
But then, I'm probably overreacting, as always.
And on top of all this drama, I have to have my superhero linework finished for class tomorrow and I'm in no mood to do it. At all. >_
But I'm so fucking glad that my best friend can talk to everyone but me. Seriously. What the fuck did I do? I didn't call the movie theatre? I've called 5 fucking times. Every single time, I've been given the runaround. Every. Single Time. They took my name twice to give to the hiring manager so she could call back. Did I get a call? No. Twice I called and she either wasn't there or was busy. And once she was on break. I'm fucking sick of calling there, deluding myself by thinking I'm actually going to get the fucking job. Because I'm not. It's not my fucking fault that I can't get a job. We've barely had the money to put in the gas tank so I can go to the mall and even put in applications. Plus, the weather has not been driving weather lately and no one wants to go out in it. So it's not my fucking fault.
I just don't know what to do. What the fuck can I do when you're fighting with your best friend and she won't even speak to you? But she'll inform everyone else of what at waste of flash I am and how I'm such an bum and won't get a job and so on and so forth. It's just tiring. I don't want to fight like this and I hate being fucking ignored. But anything i say jsut makes the fucking situation worse and screws everything over.
I'm just so sick of people yelling at me for things that are beyond my control.
Fuck it all.
But then, I'm probably overreacting, as always.
And on top of all this drama, I have to have my superhero linework finished for class tomorrow and I'm in no mood to do it. At all. >_
