Writer's Block: How I got on LJ

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I ended up on LJ after bouncing between a few other blog/diary sites. Blogger and Diaryland, to be exact.

I just wanted somewhere I could bitch and moan about things and, since I wasn't doing my webpages much anymore, but I still wanted a web-presence, I guess.

This journal is the same one I've had since I joined. I've only changed my username (from fallenangel83 to obliviousally). You can still go back, like, seven years and read all my old entries.

They're embarrassing. Please don't. I typed like a retarded animu tard.

I'm actually coming up on my seven year LJ anniversary, too. Creepy. D:

Writer's Block: The Eternal Nocturnal Struggle

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Oh lawd.

I used to be a HUGE vampire geek. I still am, a little. With the right sort of vampires.

But TJ turned me on (oh ho!) to werewolves.

I mean, c'mon, giant, savage, hulking beasts that can violently destroy everything in sight? Can be utterly terrifying, amazingly fierce and more than a little sexy all at once?

Count me in!

I'm really quite fond of Hugh Jackman's portrayal of Van Helsing (because, SPOILERS!, he becomes a hot werewolf).

Vampires have to be something really special for me to really like them. I'm not fond of the overly romantic sort, or the sadly wussy sort. I like ones that embrace their inner demons and are complete assholes and psychopaths.

Also, general assholes like Deacon Frost from Blade. :D

Overall, I like both. They can be mixed well (if you do it right!) and they stand on their own just as well.

For so many years I've wondered who you are...

Sketched at the Wish You Were Here concert the other night, inked and colored while waiting for a ride home from work yesterday. Came out pretty cute.

And, out of boredom...

You know how sometimes people on your friend's list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you *should* already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-word answers seldom help anyone out.

1. First Name:
Alaina. Everyone tells me it's a 'pretty' or 'beautiful' name. It's really, really uncommon. And the way my mom put it together makes it even more unique. It's the first three letters of my father's first name, Alan, and the last three letters of my mother's first name, Tina.

2. Age:
25. Quarter of a century. I've accomplished nothing thus far, but I'm happy. And I can't complain about that!

3. Location:
Warren, OH. Previously: Silverdale, WA, where I lived with TJ for about ten months before things fell through. We'd decided to come home prior to us actually leaving anyhow, so it wasn't like it was a huge suprise. I'm fond of Ohio (and the east coast) because it seems to have more history. Even in little things. But I miss Pike Place Market and Seattle in general dreadfully.

4. Occupation:
Actual job: Stocker at Target. Easy work, half of it prior to the store opening. Job I wish paid me more: Artist. But then, I'd be miserable if all of my art = work.

5. Partner:
keeperofdreams a.k.a. TJ. We've been together serious relationship-wise since...2005. But we tell everyone we've been a couple since 1997, which is when we met. We've been basically inseperable for the last ten years. I love her more than things I really love. Like...Nutella and peanut butter cup ice cream.

6. Kids:
None. Never. Ever. I think the prospect of children is WHY I'm not with a guy. Seriously. Pregnancy is such a (ir)rational fear for me that I don't ever want to have actual sexual intercourse with a male of the species ever. Even if we were the last two people left to populate the Earth. Don't leave it up to me, our species will die out hardcore.

If I ever ended up pregnant, I would have an abortion. If I couldn't do that, I'd throw myself down a flight of stairs and hope I didn't break my neck trying to kill the parasite forming inside of my body.

7. Brothers/Sisters:
Three. One brother (Robbie), two sisters (Sabrina and Adrianna). They live with their grandmother on their father's side. We have different fathers, obviously. I haven't seen them in, like, eight or so years. It doesn't really phase me. I always wanted to be an only child and I spent most of my childhood raising them, since my mom wasn't around.

8. Pets:
Currently...about thirty rats. Yeah. Almost half of those will be getting adopted out. We had an accidental pregnancy with one of the new girls and she popped out twelve babies. Thankfully, we have the space for them, but I don't want ALL of them to stick around. So, when they're old enough, they'll be adopted out.

Out of that absurd number of beasties we have...

Big Boys: Harper, Pamcake, Waffle, Walter, Quidditch, Binary

Little Boys: Fatchan, Koffing, Romulus, Remus, Face

The Girls: Cinnamon, Crepe, Tequila, Fuzzy

Mallow: Mallow

Little Girls: Three unnamed girls, and twelve heads-larger-than-their-bodies babies.

We also have a dog named Erin, who lives with Friend Rob currently.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:

Preparing for Anthrocon. I know, 'lulz furfag'. But a ton of my online buddies go and this is the only time I get to see them.

Figuring out this whole house situation. And wether we can stay here indefinately, or if we have to plan to move in a certain time.

Keeping my TJ happy. Which is a daily ordeal in pain and mayhem.

10. Where and for what did you go to school for?
I haven't done college yet. I'd like to, but...ugh. Every time I've tried it just...hasn't happened. And that's okay. If I go, I go. If not, ah well. Not the end of the world for me.

11. Parents?
My mom's doing well. She still does drugs occassionally, but not in the amount she used to do them in. She's finally gotten her shit together. After twenty or so years. She picks up my grandma from the nursing home, the two of us spend time together, she's helped with food and some money when she can. I'm pretty shocked. She is, too.

I haven't seen my father since 1998, when my Grandma Sandy died. I haven't even heard from him. I'm not too concerned, to be honest. He wasn't around when I was growing up and, while we did spend time together around the time I was 9-ish, it wasn't long enough to really form a father-daughter relationship.

12. Who are some of your closest friends?
TJ, Angie, Krispy, Rob. <3<3<3<3

Questions, comments, happy thoughts?

And if your head explodes with dark forbodings too...

...I don't think we're going to Anthrocon.

If what's been dumped in my checking account is my paycheck, I only have $180. This can't be right. I worked two weeks prior to this week's payday. I should have two weeks pay. This is only ONE week's pay.

On top of that, I have to put something on my credit card. I'm over my limit by $100 and that's so not even cool it's not funny. I wasn't able to pay anything on it because of the move and the fact that, well, I didn't HAVE the money to pay on it. Which is my fault, but food comes before paying things I can pay off later.

But, even still, I'd like to start getting it back into the positive.

I'll have to call the bank and see what I can do. I'm hating getting hit with the overlimit fees. If those would go away, I could get it down under it's $500 limit no problem.

I just feel...kind of defeated. I'm now really pissed because I can't afford AC in any feasible way. I have to send out badges and hope to god they get to people before the convention. I have to miss out on seeing friends and all that fun shit.

Plus? I already got those days off work. So I only have two full workdays next week.

Lovely.

Overall, I want to cry. I busted my ass to make sure things would transition smoothly once we got back here. That I wouldn't be out of work for long and I cound start fixing up my finances. But that obviously didn't happen. I was out of work for over a month (including the move), all of my funds were tapped getting here, including our tax refund things. Which could've paid off most of my credit card.

None of my shit is selling and I just want to throw my hands up and say 'fuck it all' because I'm obviously moving backwards instead of making ANY headway.