Stuff and YUP.

Jis passed away some time today, apparently. I found him this evening, curled up like he was sleeping. He was older, and had myco, but we weren't expecting him to die, especially not so suddenly.

TJ quit her job today. A good thing and a bad thing, I suppose. But she's already looking for other work until Goodwill gets back with her.

I really don't know what to do or what to say anymore. It's so hard trying to be the one with all the strength for everyone else. I try and I try and I try to make everyone happy and to make sure everyone's okay and it's so hard to keep this smile on my face. I just want everything to be okay but I don't know how to do it. I tell myself I can do it, but I don't know what 'it' is. I don't know where to start and I wish I had a map, a guidebook, anything. Something to give me some insight. I just want to help, but I never get anywhere.







Sometimes other people just say it better.

Also, I really hate crying. It makes me feel weak and stupid.