Argh. >_

Still feel like crap. Whee! What fun. Stuffed up and shit like that.

So I was laying in bed last night, trying to get to sleep, thinking about how I want to be, like, 9 again. And how I miss people I grew up with and all that. :P

I want to talk to more people online. -_- Like *C, who I used to talk to alot, but I don't anymore for some reason. :P And EG, cause she's so nice and cool. I'm always so worried about IMing someone who's got alot of friends, cause I don't want to drag them away from their conversations or something. Don't want to interfere. >_>;

Been reading Shade's Children. I read it waaay back in, like, 7th grade. Good book. Kind of a mix of The Matrix and The Giver. Or something like that. :P More The Matrix, though.

I need a way to get money. If I were to put some stuff up on Fudbid, would anyone be interested in buying? Most likely prints or something. I'm too damn lazy to do comissions. :P And it wouldn't be worth getting a comission from me, unless you just wanted a sketch/inked drawing. Cause I can't color iRL to save my life. :P

I hate being sick. :P

Bored. :P

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Don't you wish.

Y'know. I just realized that I really don't seem to fit in anywhere.

Seriously.

I mean, I love all my friends, online and off, but I can only seem to connect with them at certian times or under certian subjects. Is this weird? I mean, most of the time I'm just in the background, watching and observing. Which isn't what I want. I want to be in on everything and talking and laughing and shit like that.

My brain's thinking weird things right now. I think it's cause I'm sick. I always get like this when I'm sick. I'm hot and cold and up and down. And things are all weird in my head.

It only makes sense to me.

Maybe I need more people interaction. Maybe I need to talk to more people. Online and off. Maybe I need to get out more. Maybe I need to structure some purpose for waking up each day other than to wake up with TJ and get online when she goes to work. I shouldn't be doing this. I should be out working, or doing something like that.

Jeezus christ. There's the fucking mailbox keys I was searching for earlier. Right in front of my face.