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I feel like shit. Not sick shit. But blah shit. I don't like it.
I think I'm sick of this routine. Wake up, get dressed, go to work, come home, possibly drive around this fuckhole town, go home again, be bored, sleep. Repeat. Same shit, different day.
I can't stand repetiton for too long. At least not something like this. Little things I can tolerate. But this is a major part of my life right now, and I hate it. And I can't just call off cause I want a 'me' day. So, I grin and bear it. ARGH!
I'm a spontaneous person. I live for randomness. It takes away from the shit I have to deal with every day in town. *sighs* I don't know.
I also think TJ may be pissed at me. She wanted me to go back into Hollywood and ask Jim why he didn't call. I just didn't feel good. And I didn't feel right asking that, anyhow. Next time we're in there and he's working, I'm just going to make them say hi and talk. -_- Maybe it's cause I'm really not interested in guys. And I'm not interested in girls, either. I just don't want a relationship. I understand how TJ does, but I can';t get someone to know, or like her, though me. Sure, that'd be nice, cause TJ's a great person, bu8t it doesn't work that way. And it just frustrates me that she won't go up and just say hi to someone. Okay, I won't either, but she had the chance to make conversation with Jim. She could have asked him if he needed help find where the video went again (I don't think I actually wrote about the thing in my journal, but she'd pointed out where a game went when he couldn't find it. He works at Hollywood video, By the way...). That would've gotten a laugh out of both of them, and she could've taken it from there. I mean, I don't mind asking a guy if he's single, or getting his number for her, but anything after that I feel akward doing. -_-
I don't know, I'm babbling. I'm not completley here right now.
Stupid brain. I stab you with q-tip.
I think I'm sick of this routine. Wake up, get dressed, go to work, come home, possibly drive around this fuckhole town, go home again, be bored, sleep. Repeat. Same shit, different day.
I can't stand repetiton for too long. At least not something like this. Little things I can tolerate. But this is a major part of my life right now, and I hate it. And I can't just call off cause I want a 'me' day. So, I grin and bear it. ARGH!
I'm a spontaneous person. I live for randomness. It takes away from the shit I have to deal with every day in town. *sighs* I don't know.
I also think TJ may be pissed at me. She wanted me to go back into Hollywood and ask Jim why he didn't call. I just didn't feel good. And I didn't feel right asking that, anyhow. Next time we're in there and he's working, I'm just going to make them say hi and talk. -_- Maybe it's cause I'm really not interested in guys. And I'm not interested in girls, either. I just don't want a relationship. I understand how TJ does, but I can';t get someone to know, or like her, though me. Sure, that'd be nice, cause TJ's a great person, bu8t it doesn't work that way. And it just frustrates me that she won't go up and just say hi to someone. Okay, I won't either, but she had the chance to make conversation with Jim. She could have asked him if he needed help find where the video went again (I don't think I actually wrote about the thing in my journal, but she'd pointed out where a game went when he couldn't find it. He works at Hollywood video, By the way...). That would've gotten a laugh out of both of them, and she could've taken it from there. I mean, I don't mind asking a guy if he's single, or getting his number for her, but anything after that I feel akward doing. -_-
I don't know, I'm babbling. I'm not completley here right now.
Stupid brain. I stab you with q-tip.
