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♫ The Friday Night Boys - Permanent Heartbreak

Face down on the bathroom floor
Did you know you left me hanging out to dry
Can you see me in the ICU
Do you even care, I'm fighting for my life

Wrapped in confusion
Were you only using me to try to get him back
You set me up and that was my mistake
And all I got was permanent heartbreak
Damaged beyond repair
I was, I was much better off
Before I met you
And your with him
It pisses me off that your A-Okay
And all that I've got is permanent heartbreak

Left lying in my bed
It's killing me that
Your next to him, not me
I wish I wasn't stuck with
This stupid tattoo of you on me

Wrapped in confusion
Were you only using me to try to get him back
You set me up and that was my mistake
And all I got was permanent heartbreak
Damaged beyond repair
I was, I was much better off
Before I met you
And your with him
It pisses me off that your A-Okay
And all that I've got is permanent heartbreak

Can you see me and I see you
Do you even care, I'm dying

You set me up and that was my mistake
And all I got was permanent heartbreak
Damaged beyond repair
I was, I was much better off
Before I met you
And your with him
It pisses me off that your A-Okay
Woah oh, I hate that your A-okay!
And all that I've got is permanent heartbreak

♫ Boys Like Girls - Me, You and My Medication

Found my way to the highway, I don't wanna tell you the state I'm in
I've had too much to smoke, too much to drink, where have I been?
I feel like the stars are getting closer and the sky is closing in
And I don't know where to begin

We're all looking for something, to take away the pain

Me, and you, and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me, you, and my medication

The way back to the right track, maybe you can help me find the door
Is it too much to ask, too much too fast, too much to ignore?
It feels like your body's getting closer but you seem so far away
Medicine make it ok

We're all looking for someone, to take away the pain

Me, and you, and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me, you, and my medication

So can you feel it?
Do you feel it coming down?
You gotta get up
Can you get up off the ground?
Can you hear it?
Can you hear me screaming?
So can you feel it?
Do you feel it coming down?
You gotta get up
Can you get up off the ground?
I wanna hear it
Wanna hear you breathing

We're all addicted to something, that takes away the pain

Me, and you, and my medication
(Making the best of it)
Love is just a chemical creation
(Will it be permanent?)
Synthetic sensation
Me, you, and my medication

♫ The Appleseed Cast - Fight Song

and there on the stairs,
standing there,
arm outstretched,
point and glare,
watching the love,
fall to our feet,
into the floor to disappear.

We’re finding fault,
when you kissed her
or you slept with him,
or you didn’t care…

now it all breaks,
disintegrates.
Well this is the last thing I’ll take
cause'I can’t face you now.

This is the end, there’s nothing to keep.
This is the end of you and me.
As the ice comes down it’s the end,
as the lies come out it’s the end,
as the tears flow out it’s the end.
it's the end of you and me,

so we’ll look out on the lake
and we see the white light.
I said it was gold.
It should have been gold.
Then maybe all the crazy things you said
would have a meaning,
but this thing we have made it can't stop,
it won't stop… cause' I can’t face you now.
Take your troubles solo, this is the end of you and me.

♫ Sparklemotion - Blood (Chocolate Version)

You clean up so nice.
A gentle face I couldn’t recognize
There’s blood in your eyes
I knew that someone had to pay your price

Shelter, a safe place
I couldn’t find a way to escape
There’s blood on your face
I wish that there could be another way.

Shelter, a safe place
I couldn’t find a way to escape
There’s blood on your face
I wish that there could be another way.

Is this what it seems?
Am I make believe?
Watching through your eyes
I’m running out of time

You kiss and make nice.
A gentle face with a big surprise
There’s blood in your eyes
I knew that I was going to pay the price

Shelter, isn’t safe
I couldn’t find a way to escape
There’s blood on your face
You couldn’t have it any other way.

Is this what it seems?
Am I make believe?
Watching through your eyes
I’m running out of time

Is this what it seems?
Am I make believe?
Watching through your eyes
I’m running out of time

♫ Neko Case - Furnace Room Lullaby

All night, all i hear, all i hear's your heart
How come, how come

I twisted you over and under to take you
The coals went so wild as they swallowed the rest
I twisted you under and under to break you
I just couldn't breathe with your throne on my chest

All night, all i hear, all i hear's your heart
How come, how come

So far under the bed
Into the beams you've gone
I've gone, you've gone

I'm wrapped in the depths of these deeds that have made me
I can't bring a sound from my head though i try
I can't seem to find my way up from the basement
A demon holds my place on earth 'till i die

All night, all i hear, all i hear's your heart
How come, how come

So far under the bed
Into the beams you've gone
I've gone, you've gone

All night, all i hear, all i hear's your heart

♫ Allison Crowe - A Case of You

Just before our love got lost you said
I am as constant as a Northern Star
And I said, constantly in the darkness
Where’s that at?
If you want me I’ll be in the bar

On the back of a cartoon coaster
In the blue tv screen light
I drew a map of Canada
Oh Canada
With your face sketched on it twice

Oh you are in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you darling
And I would still be on my feet
I would still be on my feet

Oh I am a lonely painter
I live in a box of paints
I am frightened by the devil
And I’m drawn to those that ain’t afraid
And I remember when you told me, you said
Love is touching souls
Well surely you touched mine
’Cause part of you pours out of me
In these lines from time to time

Oh you’re, you are in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and you taste so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you
I could drink a case of you darling
And I would still be on my feet
I would still be on my feet

And I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your life
She knew your devils and your deeds
She said
Go to him, stay with him if you can
But be prepared to bleed
You are in my blood, you’re my holy wine
You taste so bitter, baby, and you taste so sweet
I could drink a case of you darling
I would still be on my feet
I would still be on my feet

♫ Tom McRae - Got A Suitcase, Got Regrets

Change the locks on the door.
Put out the light in the hall.
I do not live here anymore

Put the world in a box.
Turn the sign to the street.
Aim for where horizon and blue skies, meet

But all I know is
I’m not ready yet
For the light to dim
Got a suitcase, got regrets
But I’m hopeful yet

I’ve been a gifted thief
Stole everything for the cause
I never had fingers as light as yours

So wake up pretty girl
See the hope in small things
Disappointment can wear you thin

But all I know is
I’m not ready yet
For the light to dim
Got a suitcase, got regrets
But I’m hopeful yet
And I’ll raise this glass of wine
And I’ll say your name

So let’s be killers babe
Make the great escape
From all the bitter words
Of every crowded street and empty heart
It’s Christmas day, Brooklyn in the rain
But I am safe inside a better world of hope and memory
Drunk on velvet wine, southern cross for light
Deal your cards and hope that I can play a better hand this time

♫ Destine - In Your Arms

Slowly, I take the fall
The city lights don't comfort me at all
Show me, can you recall
What got me climbing up the walls
I'm out of patience
I'm still waiting on
A brand new break of dawn

Whoa, now we're going underground,
and my hands are shaking
Whoa, I can't believe we're going down
I can hear the sirens sound, from way too far
And I'm dying in your arms
In your arms

If only my thoughts were real
I could go back, but time is standing still
In this scene the frames show
I'm losing track and wait,
'Till there's no heartbeat left,
To take me back to
To take me back to you

Whoa, now we're going underground,
and my hands are shaking
Whoa, I can't believe we're going down
I can hear the sirens sound, from way too far
And I'm dying in your arms
In your arms

If only I could ever,
Change what's been done
Make it last forever,
Oh, it keeps me warm
I know that I could never
Stay in your arms

Whoa, now we're going underground,
and my hands are shaking
Whoa, I can't believe we're going down
I can hear the sirens sound

Whoa, now we're going underground,
and my hands are shaking
Whoa, I can't believe we're going down
I can hear the sirens sound, from way too far
And I'm dying in your arms
In your arms

I'm dying in your arms
I'm dying in your arms

♫ Thea Gilmore - This Girl Is Taking Bets

This girl is a stencil of a brushstroke in the rain
She's a ghost of the city, she's a body through the windscreen
This girl is the snowfall where the spring should have been
She's the stains on the pages of a top shelf magazine
This girl is a black eye, she's a bruise on your knee
She's the ashes of the people that you really meant to be
This girl's the resurrection, she's the comeback
She's the absinthe in whiskey she is poetry and Prozac

This girl is taking bets, this girl's a silhouette, can't you see?

This girl is the flutter of fake lashes in the mirror
She's a ragged edged fedora or a Spanish souvenir
This girl is the clean cut, she's the frozen ground
She's a knife drawn down the side street when there's no-one else around

This girl's a forged ticket to a Lloyd Webber show
She's the far end of the graveyard up where the nettles grow
This girl is the rainbow in the dewy eyed stares
She's the name tag on the toe of your long dead love affairs

This girl is taking bets, this girl's a silhouette, can't you see?
This girl is taking bets, this girl's a silhouette, can't you see?

This girl is the wild smile, the icy stare
She's the crackle of the static, she's the curses, she's the prayers
This girl is the junkie in the children's matinee
She's the 4 minute warning, she is hell to pay

This girl is the plunge pool she is cocaine and Kodak
Now she's out setting sail on the ocean of the soundtrack
This girl is the shaking hand, the rattling cup
With a button and a note saying things are looking up

Two weeks until finanical aid. So close, yet so far.

Went out this morning and returned things. Dissapointment at what's on clearance after the holidays. Just...nothing all that great. This is probably for the better, however.

Chuck finally went today. I'll probably bury her with the other ratties. Squeeji says she probably went to Valhalla. I don't doubt it. She wrecked shit out of the boy rats, took a couple tails and was generally a nusciance, but she also didn't tear the house up and, aside from pestering our pet rats, kept to herself.