Stuff and ...I HAVE NO WORDS.

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Session Ident: #sixeleventeener
SilverFox> I just had a rum and coke <.<
SilverFox> and a smoke
SilverFox> Little dioriented
SilverFox> *disorriented
SilverFox> and it seems like no one cares...
RedneckCoyote> its drugs
SilverFox> Guess I'll just drink myself silly again like last time
RedneckCoyote> you're suppose to be high like a kite
* KeeperOfDreams grabs some emo-away.
SilverFox> Sorry... stupid
SilverFox> I guess I'll drink myself stupid again
KeeperOfDreams> Have fun.
SilverFox> *like last time
RedneckCoyote> don't go crying at us about being drunk
SilverFox> Don't worry... I won't let my drunken ass bother you
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Session Start: Sun Nov 19 01:36:23 2006
Session Ident: #lifeproblemshelp
* Now talking in #lifeproblemshelp
RedneckCoyote> it's not worth it to kill yourself
RedneckCoyote> put down the damn gun
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SilverFox> Whats the point anymore
RedneckCoyote> we all suffer in life
RedneckCoyote> like I do
SilverFox> I would've used the cops gun... or jumped into traffic last Monday
Ally_Opossum> And the point of killing yourself would be...?
RedneckCoyote> you have any idea what's been getting you down
RedneckCoyote> is it some shit you couldn't control?
RedneckCoyote> hey I been there
SilverFox> Perhaps I've lost the better part of my mind... perhaps I should keep smoking weed
RedneckCoyote> there are plenty of things that gone to shit that I couldn't control
RedneckCoyote> I moved on
SilverFox> Yeah... try moving on after the fourth or fifth time
Al_Fox> Let me say, right now I feel absolutely pathetic, as of yet worthless to society, and yet, I don't feel any need to get rid of myself... I just need to figure myself out, no matter how long it takes.
RedneckCoyote> dude I survive
RedneckCoyote> I tried killing myself twice
RedneckCoyote> well I'm still alive
RedneckCoyote> last minute thinking got me out of it
SilverFox> Twice eh? Apparently alcohol poisoning won't do it for me
RedneckCoyote> try hanging
Ally_Opossum> Uh, we've all been through dumb shit. Suicide's just the easy way out.
SilverFox> Easy way out?
Ally_Opossum> RedneckCoyote: You're not really helping.
Ally_Opossum> Yes.
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> Yeah, it kinda is
SilverFox> You think it's bloody easy to kill yourself?
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> Hmm...at times yeah, it can be.
Ally_Opossum> Yes. If you have the guts for it. If you haven't done it yet, you obviously DON'T WANT TO BE DEAD.
SilverFox> Ally_Opossum: Oh I've tried
Ally_Opossum> What could possibly be SO BAD in your life that you're considering suicide?
SilverFox> Believe you me I have almost succeeded
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> lol dude, you were fine 3 days ago
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> talking about whatever me and you were talking about :p
SilverFox> Things can change in three days
Ally_Opossum> Also, how old are you? I can never keep track of peoples' ages.
Al_Fox> Maybe it's just me but I don't think questioning whether it is tough is going to get us anywhere.
SilverFox> 19
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> heck yesterday you were content in installing vista
Al_Fox> Pretty much newly 19 myself.
Ally_Opossum> Okay, you're at an age where there's always alot of bullshit. 19's a crappy age, believe me, I know.
RedneckCoyote> fear of facing the real world
RedneckCoyote> get with the program
RedneckCoyote> we all do
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> So..you never told us...what exactly is the deal? I mean what's so bad that you'd want to take your life?
RedneckCoyote> and still do today
SilverFox> Of fuck the real world... death and taxes
Ally_Opossum> Yeah, because we can't do crap if we don't know what's going on.
SilverFox> Might as well speed up the process
SilverFox> I've got enough alcohol here to put out a fucking elephant
Ally_Opossum> Again, you're not helping.
Al_Fox> I myself do get the feeling of 'how on Earth will I ever fit in in this Earth?', but it's as if I figure, either I'm gonna change my ways enough to fit in it, or somehow I'm gonna change its ways to fit me, but one way or another, there's going to be something to live for.
Ally_Opossum> I'm beginning to think you're doing this for attention. And you don't actually want anyone's help.
* SilverFox raises an eye
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* Ally_Opossum rolls her eyes.
RedneckCoyote> god
Ally_Opossum> I see I was correct.
Ally_Opossum> If he wanted help, he would have told us what was up.
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> Well.....there he goes
Ally_Opossum> This is typical teenager behavior.
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> that went well
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> lol
RedneckCoyote> what a waste
Al_Fox> It's hard to tell HOW it went with mere text to read. But maybe I didn't get enough of the context when I came in late.
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> I've found the gun (and a horrible gun lock, I can still dry fire it) and the bullets...
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> what's the problem with it
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> They can find me dead when they get home
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> whoa whoa whoa
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> don't shoot yourself
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> what the hell is wrong with you?
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> have you gotten help for your depression
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> yeah, last time I went, nothing got resolved... That was 9 sessions and a bit of wasted money (not that the money matters)
RedneckCoyote> *** ThaPlaceholder|Josh (Jorsh@furtopia-49D5DB67.dhcp.gnvl.sc.charter.com) has joined #lifeproblemshelp
RedneckCoyote> *** Ally_Opossum (obliviousa@furtopia-95C9
Ally_Opossum> He obviously doesn't WANT the help then. 9 sessions is nothing. It take months to even begin to break through that.
Ally_Opossum> Heck, it's takes some people a good five years to even consider getting help.
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Al_Fox> My worries that I'm staying up too late are manifesting as an imaginary annoyed voice calling my name.
* Al_Fox has quit IRC (Quit: bedtime... long since.)

Session Ident: #furtopia
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RedneckFur> last good movie i saw was open season. very funny
RedneckCoyote> anyone know the number to San Jose police?
RedneckFur> 911
RedneckCoyote> or the hospital
Freyja> Why?
RedneckCoyote> it's Silver
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> Yeah...he's got himself in a pickle :(
RedneckFur> is he hurt?
Blue_Wolf> o.o;
Freyja> What happened?
RedneckCoyote> he's planning to hurt himself for good
RedneckFur> omg...
* KeeperOfDreams just shakes her head and stays out of it.
RedneckCoyote> what a waste
Ally_Opossum> I highly doubt it.
Blue_Wolf> me too
Ally_Opossum> He's doing it for attention. If he wanted help, he would have told someone what was wrong.
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> Yeah, he wouldn't tell us why he was so angry
RedneckFur> http://www.sjpd.org/phonelist.cfm
RedneckFur> you can find their phone number here
* KeeperOfDreams notes Ally's dealt with this before, so.
Ally_Opossum> Yes, I have.
Blue_Wolf> I have too, several times, heh
Freyja> Is that what you were talking about on the lifehelp forum? o.o
Ally_Opossum> Yeah.
RedneckCoyote> yeah
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> lol yeah, but it was in the channel, not the forum
Freyja> I didn't see anything on there.. Ooooh...
Freyja> Challen.
Freyja> Channel*
RedneckCoyote> well he departed
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> yeah, he left
Master_Kahlis> i'm heading to bed, night
KeeperOfDreams> Night.
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> so he's either laying on the floor, or just laughing it up...sorry to be blunt, but yeah
RedneckCoyote> see ya Kahlis
Freyja> Hm.
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> He was fine yesterday....lol I dunno what his malfunction is.
ThaPlaceholder|Josh> He was all "I'm installing vista :D"
Ally_Opossum> He's probably complaining.

Session Start: Sun Nov 19 01:37:05 2006
Session Ident: RedneckCoyote
Session Ident: RedneckCoyote (Franchise@furtopia-CDF3262A.dyn.grandenetworks.net)
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> I've found the gun (and a horrible gun lock, I can still dry fire it) and the bullets...
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> what's the problem with it
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> They can find me dead when they get home
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> Would you kindly inform Ally that those 9 sessions spanned several months
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> 1) I am not seeking attention. 2) She really should've taken me more seriously. 3) I wasn't joking around... I had that gun loaded and ready.
Ally_Opossum> Then he should have told people what was wrong. I don't take these things lighty, but I also don't sugar coat things.
RedneckCoyote> want talk to him?
Ally_Opossum> Not particurarly.
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> People should've asked
* Ally_Opossum facepalms.
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> What am I supposed to do, just waltz back in smiling?
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> we are trying to help and give words of encouragment
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> no problem
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> but don't do it
RedneckCoyote> RedneckCoyote> we also asked what's been eating you
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> [01:39] Uh, we've all been through dumb shit. Suicide's just the easy way out.
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> [01:39] Yes. If you have the guts for it. If you haven't done it yet, you obviously DON'T WANT TO BE DEAD.
RedneckCoyote> SilverFox> [01:42] I'm beginning to think you're doing this for attention. And you don't actually want anyone's help.
Ally_Opossum> Ally_Opossum> What could possibly be SO BAD in your life that you're considering suicide?
Ally_Opossum> Ally_Opossum> Yeah, because we can't do crap if we don't know what's going on.


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