I see the bad moon arising, I see trouble on the way...

I wonder if I really don't deserve the things I have. I obviously take them for granted and I obviously seem to continually fuck things up. No matter how hard I try. I'm just like my mother. I have the best of intentions, but I absolutely fail and putting them into action. And, after all, the road to hell was paved with good intentions...

When I think I'm doing okay, I end up doing something exceptionally stupid. That causes a chain reaction that make the situation much worse than it ever needed to be. I don't do these things intentionally, but they seem to happen anyhow. Over and over and over and over again.

And my greatest, greatest fear is that she'll leave because of my unintentionally stupid acts that hurt her over and over again.

You come on with a come on, you don't fight fair...

In the last hour, I've gone through the entire range of emotions. From sad, to upset, to crushed, to ready to knock the fucking monitor off of the desk.

It's gone from me being sympathetic and trying to defend myself as well as apologize for my stupidness, to rolling my eyes at the petty, high school responses I'm recieving.

I'm fucking livid.

Baby, tell me where'd you ever learn to fight without sayin' a word...

Okay. I went and cried for a bit, got more upset over other things that aren't directly related to the situation at hand. Had the urge to come out here and shake her until she talked to me. Had some hot chocolate, played with the rats, gave Waffle some treats. Harper groomed me and Quidgy romped around. Binary slept in his hammock like the lazy nude beast he is. Had a pizza roll...thing. Put some clothes in the wash, put dishes in the dishwasher (whcih I need to run), picked up some of the clutter in the living room.

And now, instead of venting and whining and bitching and wangsting and being a huge emotard, here's some quotes:

( Words, words, words... )

I've come to the conclusion that there are some things I can't change. There's things that everyone is incapable of changing about themselves. You get the good with the bad with me. I like to think that the 'good' outweighs the 'bad'. Considering my 'bad' consists of just small, stupid things. I bend over backwards for the people I love. I do whatever's in my power to make them happy. If it's not enough, well, that's all I can do.

I've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for weeks...

Obviously not related to the title song. I was listening to Black Balloon by the Goo Goo Dolls when I drew this.

I will stand by you forever, you can take my breath away...

1. Pick 15 of your favourite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search functions to answer!

( Quotes ahoy! )

Starting from zero, got nothing to lose...

Ally> http://fallenangel.furtopia.org/JUNK/Random%20Oekaki/817.png
Kagami> Those dont even resemble tigers...
Ally> XD
Ally> HUG
Kagami> Though the one on the right kinda looks like Artem
Ally> Saggy moobies and all?
Artem> :<
Artem is sad.
Kagami> That's the most resembling part
Lobar> Why are the moobs pointy?
Kagami> Why not?
Ally> Why not?
Kagami> XD
Lobar> They look like they could poke a hole in something
Kagami> You could fuck someone with them titties

---

Ally> http://fallenangel.furtopia.org/JUNK/Random%20Oekaki/LOOK%20OUT%20BILLY!%20ITS%20A%20PENIS!.png
Eth> I'd like to revise my statement from earlier.
Lobar> OH NO NOT BILLY
Kagami> :O
Eth> /That/ is the least incriminating URL ever.
Ally> :D
Kagami> Penises are scary...
Lobar> Vaginas are scarier
Lobar> They could even have teeth
Kagami> Well, I think that last picture proves that penises are the ones with teeth
* Ally makes up for it? http://fallenangel.furtopia.org/JUNK/Random%20Oekaki/Lobsters%20are%20the%20badasses%20of%20the%20deep..png
Lobar> :D
Artem> THAT'S AWESOME.
* Lobar starts boiling a pot of water
Kagami> Why do I find that picture arousing?
Ally> ...
Lobar> Because it's gonna be awesome with a butter sauce
Artem> I want to be in that Lobster's posse.
Kagami> I want that lobster in me
Ally> D:
Eth> ALLY THE LOBSTER HAS A POSSE
Kagami> >.>
Ally> OH MY GOD IT HAS HUMAN HAND
Ally> +S
Ally> WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT
Eth> D:
Ally> I'VE NEVER NOTICED THAT.
Eth> ...oh god, now I see it too.
Eth> Perhaps it grew them while you were away? :x
Kagami> It's wearing mittens!
Eth> Probably /my/ mittens. I lost them earlier today.