You know what sucks?

When you're writing up a resume and you realize that you've accomplished absolutely nothing with your life so far. And, what you have done, you're absolutely horrible with putting into the right words to make it look good.

And the longest part of my resume so far isn't even my art stuff. It's my education. Not because I've done alot of extra stuff in school but because I've moved so goddamn much.

Go me. :/

Hell, I've gotten my last two or three jobs just cause I flashed some cleavage and acted peppy. My actual experience doesn't count for shit unless I'm an honors student who'll kiss ass all the way to the top and not care about it.

Fucking christ, do I hate resumes.

I mean, unless I luck out and get to do exactly what I want to do, I'd rather be doing factory or manual labor work. No customers, no asshats, no stupid fucks thinking they know everything. I don't have to be bothered by anyone except at lunch and during work, all I hear is the hum of the machines.

Ugh.

Things are very...tense tonight.

It's bad enough our whole day was spent writing up resume's we didn't want to write because we know they're completely useless back home. But no one seems to believe what a flaming shithole Warren is and that we simply CAN'T commute to Cleveland on a daily basis and the chances of us getting jobs even remotely near each other with even remotely the same hours is IMPOSSIBLE. But Matt's parents don't seem to believe this. It might be easier to find a job here, where you've had good schooling and plenty of opprotunities to enrich yourself, but in Warren, you're the bottom of the barrel. And you just have to deal with that until you can concoct a way out of the damnable place.

And then his mom points out that 'as much as we love having Alanna and TJ here, they're going to have to go home sooner or later'. Wow, thanks for being completely insensitive to our plight. Because we have no money to get home with and the people at home OBVIOUSLY DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK. Thanks, everyone. And it's not like the fucking Hag would send us money. I've even dropped hints, but she's just changed the subject or finished the conversation and hung up.

I was feeling okay about being stuck here for the time being, but now I feel like I'm a burden and I'm just taking up space and shit. Things are perfectly fine when it's just the three of us, but when we're all at the house it's just waiting until something is said to piss someone off, it seems.

I just feel uncomfortable now. And I'm sure, by the end of the night, I'm going to be patcing things up between Matt and TJ because they're being stubborn about something or another.

-_-