Hmmm...

So....I'm really feeling like shit.

I can't draw anything. I actually had to force myself to sketch something out last night. I was so frustrated that I felt like crying. I've never had this problem. Ever since I turned 20 I haven't been able to do hardly anything creative. Side from pixel dolls. But that doesn't fucking count. And it sucks so fucking badly. Because I want to draw, and I have all these ideas in my head. And I want to do the comic and I just CAN'T. It's been like this for weeks. Everything I've posted since April I've had to force out. And I don't want to have to do that. Drawing makes me happy, and I'm not happy when I'm trying to force myself to do something that I've done so easily for so long.

And...this weekend. It was fun, don't get me wrong. But something had to go wrong. Nothing ever goes smoothly... It's just that....everyone else who's ever visited had such a great time. And...I'm just not used to people not having fun when they're around me. Maybe I'm not just used to people who are quiet. Who aren't as loud and obnoxious as I am. Sorry. I wish you'd said something sooner. You wouldn't have offeneded, really. And it would have solved everything ahead of time...

I think...I'm going to go lay in bed for a bit. Take my stress out on the pillow or something. Then I've gotta fix my friends view. Augh.

-_-



Which Agent Smith are you?

By Madeline Elster

Ehh, pretty average...

Your Ultimate Roleplaying Purity Score
Category	Your Score	Average
Hacklust	54.72% Will kill for XP	52.6%
Sensitive Roleplaying	53.16% "But what's my motivation for this scene?"	52%
GM Experience	89.13% "Um... You guys are in a 10'x10' room..."	67.4%
Systems Knowledge	96.47% Played in a couple of campaigns	89.3%
Livin' La Vida Dorka	58.62% Has interesting conversations in public	61.1%
You are 74.62% pure Average Score: 67.1%
Take The Ultimate Roleplaying Purity Test and see how you match up!

The only reason I answered any of the questions in the GM section is cause I was constantly correcting Aaron on what we were doing and where we were when he tried to screw us over. Mwhaha.

TJ wants me to come out to the mall, cause she doesn't want to drive all the way back into town to get me. :P But my mom doesn't have the car, and I have no money for the bus. And neither does she. Auugh. :P

I R TEH SEX!

Done here: http://www.reasonablyclever.com/mini/index.html

Oh god, I still don't have a way out to the mall. The buses stop running at 7PM. >_

I keep forgetting...

That everything happens for a reason.

And I shouldn't stress over things so much.

Like I have been today.

I made my head hurt.

That is all.